EOL

"Mother" harkens to the memory of home and hearth, but today reminds me that sometime soon, I will no longer have a home to return to.

Pre-Mortum

Mistyping the tense of a mother requires speedy correction, but cannot move quicker than the mind's eye.

It Hurts Me To Say, But Sometimes The Truth Must Come Out

Parents can be real fuckers sometimes.

I Haven't The Words

I was nearly moved to tears tonight when my boyfriend's mother (and the mother of my heart) gave me her first edition of Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters To A Young Poet.

Sad But True

I am actually looking forward to being responsible for all of my expenses come my birthday this year because it means that I will finally be able to leave my mother behind.

If A Equals B And B Equals C Then A Must Equal Kumquat Jam

I've never dealt well with being yelled at and, knowing that, one must wonder just what she thinks will be accomplished by screaming at me and then, in the same breath, telling me that I never come over any more.

She'll Be Better, If You'll Be Kind

What if I really am the terrible daughter she tells me I am?

Forever Gone Is The Idealized Mother Of My Childhood

The more I work on this post, wording and rewording the same thoughts over and over again, the more I come to realize that it all boils down to this: after my experience in Virginia, I will never look at my mother the same way again.

I Need To Work On That

Upon imagining my mother's funeral and being asked to speak, my reaction is always the same, "I don't really have anything to say".

I Couldn't Tell You How It Really Was

When I phoned to check her condition after the surgery, I could not be certain if she was really pleased to hear from me, or if it was simply the drugs speaking.

Bitchin' Birthday

I must admit that seeing my mother get angry over "Stitch And Bitch" and not being able to punish me was a particularly delightful joy.

What Is One To Do?

I have, in one of my away messages, a quote in which the phrase, "God damn it" happens to occur and for some reason my mother (and now, thanks to her overwhelming concern, my father) have decided to send a message to me stating that, "it is offensive and that (I) should change it" every time they see the away message.

I Wish Things Were Different

I don't want to miss out on the festivities but after everything, I don't know how comfortable I would be going over there.

Good Morning Sunshine!

The absolute best way to wake up is by someone yelling at you about something you thought to be insignificant and because of the way they are ranting on about it makes it impossible for you to convey to them that you understand where they are coming from.

Current Events

After being on the phone with my mother for almost two hours, I realized that the void between our respective views of the world is wider than I had previously imagined.

Mother Cloning

When I expressed concern over turning into my mother at some point in my life, my cousin oh so articulately pointed out, "You don't have to worry about it, because you're far too Sarah," I suddenly felt as if sleep would not be avoiding me any longer.