EOL

"Mother" harkens to the memory of home and hearth, but today reminds me that sometime soon, I will no longer have a home to return to.

I Miss My Home

In this house, I feel like a visitor.

Behind Blue Eyes

Lying on the couch watching the patterns my slowly dying eyes paint against the fog-grey walls, I cannot help but wonder if there is even any point in hoping for a cure for an affliction that hardly anyone seems to realize exists.

Save Tonight

This weekly cycle of longing, exuberance, and parting certainly keeps life interesting.

Spinning Like A Ghost On The Bottom Of A Top, I'm Haunted By All The Space That I Will Live Without You

Coming home to an empty house feels entirely different now that I am used to sharing this space with another.

Alone But Not Lonely (As I Could Be)

I cannot imagine how incredibly empty this house would feel if I were used to him being here.

Radio Silence

I never thought that I would some day curse the very mountains that I love so dearly.

Time. What Is Time?

I was created for waiting; eyes cast toward the horizon, thoughts lingering, heart aching, soul aloft.

"Time Enough At Last"

Driving over the Cape Fear Memorial Bridge, without another car or person in sight, stirs thoughts of a post-apocalyptic world where everyone is dead but I have somehow (miraculously?) survived.

I Wanted To Believe That You'd Win The War In Your Head That I Did Not Understand

It's the not knowing, the uncertainty, the inability to plan or even guess what the future will bring, that makes me feel incredibly vulnerable and inept.

I'm Going To Be Okay

The day is beautiful, I slept alone last night and survived, I started taking my medicine at night so that it will already be in my system when I wake up, and I feel pretty!

They Will Keep It Safe

My heart belongs to the sea,
the mountain tops,
the autumn breeze,
and the spring rain.

Why Am I So Broken?

One would think that a day that contained both the acquisition of a new car and a word of thanks from someone who doesn't often give them would be a wonderful day, but that could not be further from the truth.

I Still Can't Sleep

Sitting at the kitchen table at three in the morning when sleep has forsaken me and the rest of the household is peacefully sleeping around me makes me feel so alone.

I'm Boring, Sorry

A quiet evening at home is (sometimes/often/occasionally) exactly what the (doctor/nurse practitioner/witch doctor) ordered.

Change Is Inevitable

I've decided that I can no longer be with Dan because he doesn't love God and being able to share my faith with the one I love is very important to me.

Elegie

Sometimes I feel like I could go days without seeing someone I know.

I'm Feeling Like A Lost Cause

I came to the coffee shop because I couldn't stand to be alone in the house that is always too small but now is far too large, but now that I am surrounded by people I realize that the one person I cannot escape from is me.

Two Entirely Different Types Of "Alone"

Her father has died and I have been left alone on New Year's Morning but not nearly as alone as she.

My Confession

I am sometimes pleased when he leaves, as I enjoy my solitude at times, but I am never happier than when he returns.