EOL

"Mother" harkens to the memory of home and hearth, but today reminds me that sometime soon, I will no longer have a home to return to.

Pre-Mortum

Mistyping the tense of a mother requires speedy correction, but cannot move quicker than the mind's eye.

Home

I just want to feel safe again.

Sing a song for the ones who never made it

Will I ever stop missing him?

Forgive Me For Letting This Be True

I just want to walk up to all the old ladies that I see and shake them, asking how it is that they are here while she is gone.

Unobtainable

Now that I'm engaged, the reality of my wish to be married before my grandmother forgot who I was has fully crashed down upon me.

Show Me A Garden That's Bursting Into Life

I miss having a house that I can invite people into.

Into The Mystic

I hope that you find peace.

The Path Not Taken

Observing my mother and father interact during the preparations for Sunday dinner make me thankful for the choices that have been made.

One Day My Home Will Come

Reading recipes makes me desperately wish for a home where I can cook delicious meals for my loved ones.

Forever?

There is never enough time.

Strawberry Marigold

The truest judge of how important something is to you is how intense your reaction when you believe it to be changed forever.

And I'm Losing Hope

I don't know how to fix this.

To Heed Or To Hope?

Memories of the past function as warnings for the future.

I Miss My Home

In this house, I feel like a visitor.

Do They Collide?

Tomorrow cannot possibly come soon enough to satisfy my need for escape.

A Long Time Coming, A Long Time Yet To Go

The great culling begins!

I Just Want To Hug Her

Going through old notebooks is like plunging face-first into the mind of a girl going through an amazing array of life changing experiences but is not aware of the long reaching affect they will have on her.

Quiet Moments

I miss parts of my life that I never realized that were there.

Time Flies When You're...

My breath catches in my throat as the words fight to be spoken, "One week until I leave the city of my birth," and I cannot seem to make myself believe that it is true.

They Haven't Gotten The Best Of Me Yet!

Allow me to rephrase: the reports of my dying are greatly exaggerated.

Behind Blue Eyes

Lying on the couch watching the patterns my slowly dying eyes paint against the fog-grey walls, I cannot help but wonder if there is even any point in hoping for a cure for an affliction that hardly anyone seems to realize exists.

The Reports Of My Death Are Greatly Exaggerated

Don't you dare act surprised.

Words Of Wisdom

In my birthday card this year, my grandfather wrote "BE HAPPY" and that has stayed with me ever since, echoing in my mind whenever I feel lost.

This End Up

The fragility of things, whether true or simply inferred, worries me at times but there is little I am able to do.

Create Your Character

My god, what have I done?

"Bypass Death" And Do Not Make A Monopoly Joke

Immortality has been achieved by a jellyfish but is it the sort of immortality that most would want?

Because The New York Times Says So!

Well it is official - we are in a Recession.

Doubly So If You Are Practically Bedridden Due To Cramps

You learn a lot about a person after spending a weekend in bed with them.

Perception Or Reality?

Thanksgivings with my family get stranger and stranger as I age.

Disjointed Thoughts In The Brambles And Ivy

My thoughts as of late are a tangled mass of verbs and nouns and I search for the tail so that I may find the center.

Treat Everyone With Respect And Kindness, No Matter What Their Caste

I was alone in the ice cream shop when Keith, a very unique homeless man, walked in.

Hindsight And All That Jazz

Sometimes the biggest changes are the ones that you never even see happening but upon later reflection stand out with stark contrast.

Unblinking

After looking the past directly in the eyes and allowing myself to face whatever reaction I might have to what I saw there, I can honestly say that I regret nothing.

So Few Summers In The Lifetime Of A Cool-Weather Girl

I just realized that not once this entire summer did I wear a swimsuit, enter a body of water larger than my bathtub, or even put my feet in the ocean and this makes me very sad.

(Everything)Cubed

Despite everything, or perhaps more accurately, because of everything, I still have faith that everything is going to turn out just fine.

Moonlight Dancing Along The Waves

On this, the coldest night of the year, I find myself wishing to be found sitting on the rocks, staring out across the sound.

Take The Good With The Bad Or Take Nothing At All

Mixed blessings are the way of my world.

They Are Staging A Protest Against The Starbucks' Music

Raleigh has been overrun by geese and, to quote my darling cousin, "A pox of flying, honking things upon your house!".

Successful Spur Of The Moment Surprise

This is the best impromptu road trip ever.

Not For Children

Today, in the playground of my old elementary school, a teenage boy was made to kneel before having a pistol put to the back of his head and the trigger was pulled - sending a single shot into this skull.

Silly Things Like Text Format And Paper Quality Bug Me

I actually dislike the edition of Leaves of Grass that I have to the point that it makes me irritated every time that I see it.

Save Tonight

This weekly cycle of longing, exuberance, and parting certainly keeps life interesting.

After A Long Ride Along The Highway To Hell, They've Finally Arrived

I cannot wrap my head around the fact that AC/DC's new album is a Wal-Mart exclusive.

Even My Body Keeps Secrets From Me

It is frightening just how much can go wrong with your body without you even being aware of it.

Hook, Line, And Sinker (But Now I'm Mixing Metaphors)

It has been awhile since a book has taken me into its maw and steadfastly refused to release me.

Please Keep The Redneck Riots To A Minimum, Thank You

Tethered to my laptop, feverishly yet methodically refreshing cnn.com, I hope against hope that everything will be okay.

I Love The Drops Of Rain Smiling On My Feathers Guiding My Way

The cloud-filled sky was alive with birds of all descriptions: herons, gulls, geese, and others - and I wished that I could join them in their flight.

Spinning Like A Ghost On The Bottom Of A Top, I'm Haunted By All The Space That I Will Live Without You

Coming home to an empty house feels entirely different now that I am used to sharing this space with another.

"That Was Nice"

Three little words from my father gives me such peace of mind.

Watching The Second Ring Movie Kinda Kills It For Me Though

After holding Sally's baby in my arms and then watching Stewie hold him in his arms, I am filled with thoughts and emotions that I do not often entertain.

And Not Just A Home For Boxes!

Slowly, ever so slowly, and one box at a time, I am transforming this house into a home.

Words Fail Me

I sit here staring at this blank page of cyber-paper, trying to leach words from its milky surface, only to ultimately be denied.

Standing Unobtrusively In The Corner Of My Livingroom

That was the best cause for a double take that I can possibly imagine.

PaPaYa! Is One Of My All-Time Favorites

I have art!

No - He Isn't Named David

I have a gnome on my phone!

Dead Sea Scrolls and County Fair, Here I Come!

I love making plans because it makes the future seem closer than it might otherwise be.

The Sound Of Rain Striking The Roof Of My Back Porch

I am constantly discovering new things about this house to love.

Very Small Margin For Error

I cooked on a gas stove tonight for the very first time and I am pleased to report that my house is still standing!

Alone But Not Lonely (As I Could Be)

I cannot imagine how incredibly empty this house would feel if I were used to him being here.

Answer: Unadulterated Talent

How does one girl manage to acquire this much stuff over the course of only twenty-four and one half years?

Welcome, Indeed.

Welcome to the new beginning of your new life in a new place and with an entirely new sense of hope.

Fortunately, I Work Well Under Time Constraints

Now that the day that I had been wishing to arrive is practically on my doorstep, I feel slightly overwhelmed and wish that the next few hours creep by so that I can get more done.

Holy Crap - It's Cold Outside!

The sudden, literally overnight, change from eighty-plus degree days to fifty degrees is enough for me to seriously question my involvement by packing all of my winter clothes.

A Faint Grey Wash

Learning that your shop may not be open for much longer is a rather rude wake up call from a blissful daydream.

You Know It Makes Me High When You Turn Your Love My Way

A totally unexpected surprise can make an otherwise crappy day shine.

Streetlights Waking Up, Sun Turning In

Writing a list of items we need for the new house makes it feel more real: I can actually see us sitting on the front porch together, watching the night fall.

Yay For Efficiency!

Packing goes so much quicker when you have help.

Just A Smile And A Sigh

I don't have the words to properly express just how overwhelmingly lucky I am.

Holy Crap!

We have a house!

Good Enough

Even though I have not lived with my parents in four years and am largely independent of them, I still want them to be proud of me and support my decisions.

I Foresee A Game Of Trunk Tetris In My Near Future

I don't think you ever truly realize just how much stuff you've collected over the years until you are forced to put it into a multitude of little boxes that will be light enough for you to carry without assistance.

Eleven Days

So freaking surreal.

Girl, You'll Be A Woman Soon

As my best friend oh-so-kindly brought to my attention today, I will be 25 in four months and I am startlingly close to being considered "settled down".

Visits Aren't Quite The Same

I woke up this morning with Louie curled up next to me and for the first time, it really hit me how much I am going to miss him.

Oh, Beloved, Blessed Trees

I would love to go on a trip around the world, visiting all of the awesome trees.

Time Marches On, But Always At The Wrong Pace

I was too excited to sleep; my future was waiting for the turn of the clock and I was but a rebellious spirit.

Three Doors

Sitting in the house that I've called home for the last four years, sorting through my collected belongings in preparation for the move, my thoughts seem scattered yet oddly focused - like the winds surrounding the eye of a hurricane.

A Small Gift From His Pocket

The taste of cherry Hall's cough drops summon incredibly vivid memories of sitting between my grandparents in church when I was little.

In An Explosion Of Mirth And Stars

I fear that if one more happy accident occurs, I may very well burst from joy.

Radio Silence

I never thought that I would some day curse the very mountains that I love so dearly.

Time. What Is Time?

I was created for waiting; eyes cast toward the horizon, thoughts lingering, heart aching, soul aloft.

Sexy And Warm! Bonus!

I have a love affair with socks and stockings, especially ones that come up over my knee and have small seams for my sensitive toes!

Uncharted Territory

I am fully aware that I am treading dangerously close to "school girl giddiness".

Mercedes Benz Dealerships And Lean-To's

Never before have I seen such exorbitant wealth existing directly beside soul crushing poverty.

The Brightly Colored Hippie Skirt Probably Has Something To Do With It

Sitting in a theater surrounded by hundreds of long haired, black shirt and jean wearing metal fanatics I somehow manage to feel both at home and completely out of place.

Summary

In such a short time, so much has changed.

Feel Free To Say No To This, But...

How incredibly different might things have turned out had I not decided to drive to Durham in the middle of the night?

Suffer The Innocents

Talking to his niece breaks my heart and there is nothing I can do to fix it.

"Time Enough At Last"

Driving over the Cape Fear Memorial Bridge, without another car or person in sight, stirs thoughts of a post-apocalyptic world where everyone is dead but I have somehow (miraculously?) survived.

No Happy Mediums To Be Found

It often seems like things are either changing far too quickly or not nearly fast enough.

An Orange Is An Orange

I am so incredibly sick of the sentence, "It is what it is".

I Wanted To Believe That You'd Win The War In Your Head That I Did Not Understand

It's the not knowing, the uncertainty, the inability to plan or even guess what the future will bring, that makes me feel incredibly vulnerable and inept.

I'm Going To Be Okay

The day is beautiful, I slept alone last night and survived, I started taking my medicine at night so that it will already be in my system when I wake up, and I feel pretty!

Lying Here With No One Near

I cannot wait to walk along the water at night, looking up at the stars, and dancing in the sand.

They Will Keep It Safe

My heart belongs to the sea,
the mountain tops,
the autumn breeze,
and the spring rain.

Night Train

When I do not trust my voice, I allow music to speak the true words of my soul.

Envelope Me Swiftly, Hide Me From The Haze

Autumn is finally coming, I can feel it in the wind, and I welcome it with open arms.

Yay For Birthdays!

Birthdays, celebrations of life and gathered wisdom, often conclude with the guest of honor wishing that he or she were dead due to the cumulative affects of the traditional overindulgence of celebratory liquids.

Centered

I yourn to walk unhindered and unaccompanied through the woods with only my thoughts and nature herself to keep me company.

If (When) I Find It, I'll Post It Here

Somehow during the course of my move, I've lost (or, perhaps, only misplaced) the notebook with this entry in it.

Lingering Echos Of The Little Mermaid, I'm Sure

I often have dreams where I am sitting at the bottom of the sea, looking up toward the sunlight, through leagues and leagues of water, completely at peace.

Your Tax Dollars At Work

I cannot understand the logic involved with the decision to buy automatically flushing toilets and automated paper towel dispensers but only have one soap dispenser (which is decidedly on its last legs) in a bathroom with two sinks.

If (When) I Find It, I'll Post It Here

Somehow during the course of my move, I've lost (or, perhaps, only misplaced) the notebook with this entry in it.

What Was I Thinking When I Wrote This?

It is always strange to run across old notes written to yourself: bits of lyrics scribbled on the back of flyers, to do lists, shopping lists, and doodles - all sent from Sarah-Past to Sarah-Now(Future).

Especially In The Wee Hours Of The Night When All You Want To Do Is Sleep

Perhaps it is only me, but the memory of vomiting never quite encompasses the truly horrid nature of the actual experience.

It Is Best That You Didn't Ask

Protein is protein.

The Past Is Only In Our Heads

Discovering that what you had long believed to be a dream was actually a memory is a very strange experience.

Imagination Take Flight!

I love surreal art.

Photos Cannot Capture The Feeling Of The Earth Under Your Feet Nor The Smell Of The Trees

There are so many things in this world that I wish to experience firsthand because photos in books simply to not satisfy my need to explore.

The Very Word "Diction" Confuses Them

Esoteric is among the list of words that I love but feel odd using due to the vocabulary level of the general public.

A Visitor From The Future?

While sitting at the coffee shop, I saw a girl walk by the windows that I could have sworn was little Jess all grown up and it sent shivers down my spine.

From Beyond The Veil

I think that if I knew in advance that I was about to die I would use Blogger's new Schedule A Post feature to leave a message for my family and friends a week after my death.

Why Am I So Broken?

One would think that a day that contained both the acquisition of a new car and a word of thanks from someone who doesn't often give them would be a wonderful day, but that could not be further from the truth.

Even I Didn't Recognize Myself

I've never looked so professional in my life.

Yay For Variety!

I'd forgotten how nice it can be to work and go to school at the same time.

Among The Delicious Coffeehouse Scents

Sitting upstairs at JavaDog, enjoying their free WiFi and tasty juice while waiting for my six o'clock class to roll around gives me such a sense of well being.

Clearing The Path

I find joy in pruning my plants, kneeling among the vegetation and the spiders and the other unseen creatures of my yard.

The Intracoastal Waterway Claims Another Victim

Reading the article about my cousin's death makes the entire situation feel real in a way that even attending the memorial service did not.

Betrayal From A Known Source But For Unknown Reasons

I think that it might be for the best if I stop trying to decipher the meaning behind people's actions and their motivations and simply accept them for who and what they are.

I Still Can't Sleep

Sitting at the kitchen table at three in the morning when sleep has forsaken me and the rest of the household is peacefully sleeping around me makes me feel so alone.

If Anyone Asks, My Name Is Marilyn

The magic of customer service has allowed me to acquire a free messenger bag with my textbook order, even though I didn't get the offer until sixteen hours after I placed my order.

Perhaps He Awaits Me At The Top Of The Tower

I feel that due to the massive amounts of drama in my life right now, I have unintentionally denied him in the experience of discussing his favorite book series with me.

Curvaceous

Looking at a photo of my best friend in her skivvies (and kick-ass fishnet socks), I swell with pride at her confidence in her body while at the same time wondering why the hell can I not do the same.

Searching For Peace In This War-Torn Land

I cannot help but feel that if I look hard enough, long enough I will discover a sunny glen with a softly babbling brook, surrounded by big, shady trees - all hidden here somewhere amidst the insanity.

Sorry - Please Try Again

The universe giving me a sandwich does not really make up for the fact that my cousin was just killed in a boating accident.

I <3 Learning

No matter how old I get, the upcoming school year still makes me feel giddy: a new notebook, pens, pencils, and new subject matter for me to learn.

Won't You Be My Neighbor?

Supposedly Johnny Depp has purchased a home on Figure 8 Island and I think that I should offer him a 'welcome to the neighborhood' jello mold.

Our Numbering Is Off And It Is Driving Me Crazy

Random thought before sleeping: Sep(7)tember, Oct(8)tober, No(9)vember, Dec(10)ember.

Sadly My "Wonderful Diction" Is Not Enough To Fix This Situation

It is very painful to have someone tell you that your parents should be very proud of you when you know very well that is not the case.

Pan's Labyrinth And Ahab's Wife (Or The Star Gazer)

There is a certain undeniable element of joy and satisfaction that is found in sharing something that you love with someone that you love and having them love it as you do.

VA Here We Come - Spectral Wolves Or No

This is totally how I foresee tomorrow going.

Do The Twist

How twisted must our society be to have the very art of healing - something that should be just as much a right as education is - be the origin of so many financial burdens for the masses yet the proverbial 'gravy train' for the few?

It Hurts Me To Say, But Sometimes The Truth Must Come Out

Parents can be real fuckers sometimes.

Eight-Eight-Eight

Attending a Friday night movie is as novel to me as it would seem to be normal for everyone else, based on the assembled crowd outside of the Mayfaire Cinemas.

Snug As A Bug In A Rug

How delightful is the sensual experience of sinking into a comfy bed - cool sheets, fluffy comforter, and soft pillow - at the end of an incredibly long day?

I Wish I Had A River I Could Skate Away On

You cannot create peace with someone who only desires war.

Radiating Up Through My Bare Feet

A stolen moment outside in the warmth of an August evening after a day inside an overly air conditioned shop is as refreshing as a cool rain after a day spent in the scorching heat.

Do Or Do Not. There Is No Try.

I am excited about this opportunity to help people, but I worry that I am going to somehow fail to follow through with my ideas.

Grown-up Actions With Childlike Enthusiasm

This little Sarah is going back to school!

The Dance Of The Dissonant Daughter

I am a drain on money with no return.

Up, Up, And Away

When no one is looking, I can fly.

Job Seeking In The Modern Age

The downside to applying for jobs online is that you find yourself leaping out of your skin every time your mail notifier makes a noise.

Stupid Hormones

In a word: PMS.

Adventure!

Even now, there is a part of me that leaps in joy at the sight of a gigantic mound of dirt at a construction site.

Protection

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you cannot keep someone from making their own mistakes.

Don't Carry The (In/Mid/End) World Upon Your Shoulders

Forever more, Hey Jude will make me think of a certain gunslinger.

Contrary To Popular Belief, "Mo' Money, Mo' Problems" Could Not Be Further From The Truth

After doing the math on my income, I have come to the conclusion that I desperately need a higher paying job.

The Meeting Of The Powers

Tonight my mother, father, and baby sister will meet Dan's mother for the first time, but while I'm sure everything will be fine, I cannot shake this nervousness.

The Ties That Bind

Getting drunk on wine with your boyfriend's mom is a wonderful experience.

"I Love Her But I Love You More"

Sitting at India Mahal with one of my closest friends, knowing that I'll probably never see her again makes me sad but simply knowing her makes me a better person.

Happiness Is A Blank Page Waiting To Be Filled

There is a delightfully simple pleasure in the physical act of writing that cannot even begin to be emulated by writing on the computer: the scratch of the tip of the pen against the grain of the paper, the scent of the ink, the minute motions of the fingers and hand...

Sleepy Sleepy

Slow Sundays at work make me feel like I have not slept in a week.

From That Which Is Broken Comes Beauty

Butterflies from a broken sand dollar ornament are my secret consolation prize for time wasted inside on a gorgeous day.

Think Of Childhood Friends And The Dreams We Had

I used to believe that I knew exactly how I felt about almost everything, but now I know that I was wrong.

Try To Think About That And Not Quickly Re-Evaulate The Way You Spend Your Time

If I live to be one hundred years old I am already almost one-fourth of the way though my life.

All So My Boss Can Prove A Point

Working eleven and one half hours straight at a tee-shirt shop is fucking ridiculous.

Heaven By Comparison

I miss my little (quiet, neat, comfortable, familiar, non-insane) holiday shop.

I Don't Feel Any More Well Prepared For My Senility

Well, if having a 401K made me a grown-up, I suppose rolling it over into an IRA makes me a full blown adult.

Probably Less Clean And More Flammable But Also More Real

What was it like before money was simply numbers on a computer screen?

Know What I Mean, Vern?

Sometimes words fail to adequately and accurately express how I feel and, lest I become inconsolably frustrated, I must simply resign myself and my thoughts to their respective fates.

Who Knows What May Become Of Him, Or What He May Become

Looking into the eyes of my newborn nephew, I finally understand why people say that children are full of promise - like an open ended thought.

Wash Away

Standing in the warm summer rain with my best friend makes me happy and allows me to forget about everything else for awhile.

Low Fuel Lights, For Example

Sitting in a borrowed car that has run out of gas with an incredibly pregnant woman and a toddler on a very hot and humid day makes you appreciate the finer things in life.

Save Me Mommy!

When your seventy pound puppy climbs on top of you in response to the belated fireworks outside, you become intimately aware of the fragility of your internal organs.

Some Might Call It "Limitless Patience". I Haven't Made Up My Mind Just Yet.

In retrospect, I cannot believe that I just stood there and let her insults ("like a thief in the night") and complaints wash over like I did.

"Hello, Two Sisters?"

The world just feels more right now that she is working at the bookshop again.

An Unexamined Life Is Not Worth Living

Philosophy is one of my guilty pleasures.

I Declare My Independance From This Police State

I miss my rights.

Faith, Blind

Blind faith is as dangerous as it is foolish.

The Happening

The sixty million dollar budget for this interesting, albeit lacking, film could have been used to feed a starving country but instead it was spent on something that has no real usefulness or practical application what so ever.

Such A Tasty Member Of The Cashew Family

Mango(e)s make me happy.

You're Such An Inspiration For The Ways That I Will Never, Ever Choose To Be

The end of my sentence, served with my head held high and my tongue held tightly, has finally arrived and I could not be more happy with my new found freedom.

Fly Me To The Moon

Whenever I hear Tony Bennett sing the line,"Let me sing forever more," I cannot help but feel a certain sadness wash over me, and I'm not sure why.

"Study Hard, Do Your Best And You Will be Successful"

Unfortunately, I am a member of a generation who was spoon-fed such lies and/or promises and are now finding themselves in a world who did not get the memo.

Commas And Decimal Usage Aside, Of Course

Isn't it fascinating to think that even though countries all have different languages, we largely have the same numbering system?

There Are Other Worlds Than This

The influx of visitors from overseas gives me the barest hint of the exotic and foreign world outside of the one that I know and inhabit.

Common Sense

Being constantly surrounded by negativity is highly taxing on the soul.

Hide Your Children!

Add another item to the list of things that makes me frustrated with humanity and the direction the world is heading.

“Scratch Any Cynic And You’ll Find A Disappointed Idealist"

All sadness aside and all things considered, I'm surprised his heart didn't fail years ago.

More

This rings too closely to home.

Exposed

I was a fool to have bought the sundress.

"Real People Pay Real Money To Hang Out With My Imagination"

Stephen King should be proud of his ability to hit the proverbial nail on the metaphorical head.

Poor Unloved Material Sitting All Alone And Unused

I need to start working on my skirt again before it gives up and becomes a rag-heap.

I Bleed For My Art

Having my foot tattooed was one of the most painful experiences of my existence thus far, but I am very lucky to have such a patient best friend with a delightfully high tolerance for bearing-down induced pain.

I'm A Pepper

Some days do not lend themselves particularly well to insightfulness.

Escape!

When work gets stressful and the drama gets to be too much, it is nice to have an eventual out planned.

There Will Be No Sleeping In This Rave

Lightning strobe effects are not conducive to a good night's sleep.

|Eat|Sleep|Eat|Sleep|Eat|Sleep|

I detest being a slave to my body's needs.

Take That!

After having my job threatened and informed that the employee with the best sales will be the most likely to keep her job, I have taken great pleasure in the fact that I beat the owner's sales from yesterday by almost one hundred dollars (or by one third, to give you an idea as to just how much difference one hundred dollars makes).

To Hold Everyone Close And Keep Them Safe From Harm

To be referred to as a "blessing" makes me feel very good about my interactions with people but at the same time, I feel as if I could be doing more.

Differences Are Fascinating

When I was young I was fascinated by carnival freak shows, but as time has passed and the times have changed, the true "freaks" have been replaced by technological trickery: smoke and mirrors.

Woment Typically Just Bob Their Heads

Having my musical selection praised by customers lifts my spirits but I do find it interesting that it is almost always older men who do the commenting.

Magical Psychic Foreigners

Listening to small children speaking a foreign language makes me happy.

Spin, Spin, Spin

I bought my first sundress today and I feel so pretty in it; albeit a bit naked.

Get "The Scoop"?

When the woman you work for changes the entire vibe of a room when she walks in, it might be an ideal time to consider changing vocations.

Reach Out And Touch Someone

I have so many people on my AIM list that I haven't had contact with in ages but I cannot bring myself to delete their names.

Any Minute Now

I'm waiting for my real life to begin.

My War Paint Is Sharpie Ink

Home made and impromptu, cocoa icing makes my day a good deal better.

The End Of An Epic Battle!

Hope abounds.

Yes/No Questions Are The Devil

I think that most things in life would benefit from having an essay box for explaining our reasons.

One Day I Would Like To Return

There is something about the idea that mankind came from the stars that I find attractive, but Scientology had to go and ruin that one.

Read Or Not, Here I Come

I am truly not prepared for the onslaught that is June in Wilmington: waves of tourists, surges of heat and humidity, impending devastational hurricanes, and mosquitoes the size of the Volkswagen Convertible of my dreams.

I Wear My Brand With Pride

My tattoo artist thinks I'm a sweetheart.

Motivation For Me To Pick Up My Instrument Again

I am currently nursing a gigantic crush on the violinist for Turisas and I'm not ashamed of saying so!

He Couldn't Even Stand Up By Himself

Seeing my father after his surgery was a very strange and surreal experience.

Surprise Connections

Reconnecting with someone from your (not so distant) past can make you feel a lot better about a frustrating and negative situation.

Touristical Frustration

You don't have to pretend to be interested in my wares if all you want is to know where the closest bathroom is located.

Fatherless Daughter

I just want to protect her and make everything okay, but I am powerless to help her until she opens her heart to herself.

I'm Boring, Sorry

A quiet evening at home is (sometimes/often/occasionally) exactly what the (doctor/nurse practitioner/witch doctor) ordered.

Conflicting Ideas

How is it that I can simultaneously believe that the expanse of time (and I'm sure the quality of that times comes into play somehow) that my life will cover is both very long and very short?

Rehab Is For Quitters!

I'm so incredibly addicted to Kingdom Of Loathing but I don't want any rehab, thanks.

Imported Folk Metal Is Always Superior To Domestic

Returning to the (comparative) silence of my home from PaganFest in Raleigh, I noticed that the ringing in my ears sounded distinctly like the chirping of crickets in summer.

Of All The Things I've Lost...

At what point do you switch from "old enough to know better" to the sort of existence that is marked by the encroaching senility that is bestowed upon the elderly?

Dolly Good, Hernia Bad

Even though I know a hernia operation is a standard and routine surgery, I cannot help but be nervous for my father.

This Mortal Life

No one gets out alive.

An Entire Ecosystem In A Square Foot Of Land

Sitting on the grass on the bank of the Northeast Cape Fear River with my pups tethered nearby, I notice the abundance of life all around me and it reminds me of those 1x1 square foot maps we did as children in science class.

Sunny Flowers For A Sick Girl

A surprise box of flowers can brighten up the darkest of kitchens.

Europe Is To The USA As The USA Is To Mexico

The record-setting low value of the USD is cause for many international travelers to flock to our shores even though one must wonder what sort of vacation there is to be had in a country whose economy is in the gutter.

Oh, The Irony

What good is a medicine that stops you from coughing so that you can sleep if it makes you too awake to even want to even lie down?

I Feel As If I've Gone The Long Way Around To End Up Where I Am Now

And once more the path my life follows has decided to take a unique turn and I am excited to report that, if things go as I intend, this change may have a positive affect on many people.

Feverdogs

Upon being awakened from a semi-restful nap by the sound of my dogs playing loudly, I in turn, loudly inquired if they could possibly decrease the noise level of their fun, only to be surprised and distressed when virtually no sound exited my mouth.

Turtle Running In The Rain

A turtle was in my yard this morning, walking steadfastly away from the lake; I wanted to save it but I was in the shower.

No Backtalk Or Anything!

You never realize just how much of a delight having a faucet that turns off on command truly is until you live without one for ages.

Spinach And Ricotta And Pepperoni And Mozzarella!

Tonight I made my very first calzone and it was quite delicious.

My Stash Begins

Thirty-four dollars and change worth of fabric (half of it on sale) weighs a lot more than you'd think it would.

She Who Was Never A Quintessential College Student

Despite my best attempts, sitting at Hibachi Express while surrounded by college students makes me feel incredibly old and ugly.

Emergency Hydration Needed!

Sometimes catholic stretchers just want punch and are willing to stand in line for it.

And People Still Seem To Think That It Is Their Independence Day!

It bothers me that the only time this country, as a whole, seems to have any interest in the history of Mexico is when it involves heavy drinking on our part.

What If I Say The Wrong Thing?

My niece has requested my advice for her upcoming (and impending) E(nd)O(f)G(rade) exams and I cannot help but feel excited about my first real 'auntly' duty but I am afraid of letting her down.

Born To Clerk

I get such pleasure out of mundane things like organizing the closet at work and preparing the paperwork for the day's sales that sometimes I worry that I really am a grade A loser.

The Tears Of Snow-White Sorrow

I am so disappointed in Nightwish's new vocalist.

Tis The Natural Progression, I Suppose

One day I will be an old woman; a girl no longer.

Trial And Error

I'm slowing figuring out how to make the perfect pitcher of sweet tea.

To Everything There Is A Season And A Time For Every Purpose

I'm sad to realize that I will only, at best, have eighty-five springs and falls and winters and summers.

Little Ghost

The idea of a child ghost makes me very sad; the kind of painful experience that I imagine it would take to cause a spirit to remain here is something I would never wish upon anyone, especially a child.

Angelfood Cake and Moosetracks

My baby sister is now seventeen and while I feel positively ancient in comparison, I would hate to be in high school again.

The Wimpy Force Encounters The Immovable Object

Such is the nature of any attempt at removing a blanket from underneath my dog.

Lighting A Single Candle In A Room Filled With Darkness

I think that I finally understand what would motivate me to have a child: the change to make a positive impact on the world by adding a new element into the equation.

The Bleeding

My first experience as a Feature Film extra has left me with decidedly mixed feelings but at least my wallet is a bit more full because of it.

Bubbles Just Get In The Way

Tonight I was highly disappointed to discover that, despite the fact that I quite enjoyed them when I was small, I really do not like bubble baths.

And So It Begins

I bought the first bit of fabric that I am going to use to make SKIRTS!

Play Your Role, Collect Fifty Dollars

I have a very difficult time selling products in which I do not believe.

Goal Of 200 Dollars, My Ass

Sunday is a day of rest and of poor sales.

Barefoot And Dreaming

Walking around my shop barefoot makes me happy but it does make it difficult to reach things.

Come Together (or) We Could Change Everything

Because of the vast schism that exists between the different cultures, which are enforced in/by the media and our own misconceptions, we forget that we are all people first and foremost; and if we could, for one moment, all remember that, what power we would have.

Peacocks And Owls And Snakes!

Have you ever bought a neato shirt only to worry when you get home that it might not look nearly as good on you as you thought it did when you tried it on at the store?

By Claiming Tickets Sixteen and Fifteen From The Few Remaining

Holy crap - we're going to Prog Power!

Wind In My Hair

Days likes today make me wish for a motorcycle.

Rectangle Bar Of Spice!

What a wonderful surprise a bar of soap makes.

Change Of Scenery

I do some of my best writing when I'm at work.

Passive Aggressive Bitch

The innate ability to add insult to injury must come at a steep price.

Familiar Yet Strange

As I prepare to sleep in a place I've known since childhood, I wonder what it will be like to awaken here and what sort of dreams will inhabit my sleep.

A Bum No Longer

That which was previously believed to be impossible has occurred.

Truth In Advertising

After seeing this comic, I truly cannot stop seeing the wrinkles that are slowly forming around my mouth.

My Kingdom For A Library!

Pretty soon I will be forced to make bookshelves out of books so that I will have somewhere to store my books.

Now I'm So Far Away From You, I'm Naming A Star For You

Running across lyrics jotted down on band flyers tucked into the back of Candide takes me back to a time in my life I'd rather not visit.

Lady Bug, Lady Bug, Fly Away Home

I saw my first lady bugs of the season today and I felt that I should inform the aphid population of their impending doom.

I'd Like To Opt Out Now, Please

I am utterly appalled by the sheer amount of crap we, as a country, put into our bodies on a daily basis and the affect it has on our bodies and minds.

Shake, Rattle, And Roll

Watching Dan's grandmother dance the jitterbug to the music at the end of Clue makes me smile.

Glamorous!

Putting make-up on for the very first time makes me feel grown-up but also very silly.

Better Late Than Never

I think that I have finally experienced the mystique of the seasonal allergy.

Change Is Inevitable

I've decided that I can no longer be with Dan because he doesn't love God and being able to share my faith with the one I love is very important to me.

Elegie

Sometimes I feel like I could go days without seeing someone I know.

Playing With My Ding A Ling

Watching an older gentleman entertain himself by making the bells hung on my door frame ring by hitting them with his head makes me laugh.

Pretty White Flowers

With summer-like temperatures one day and winter like temperatures the next, the dogwoods that bloomed, seemingly overnight, are in for a harsh surprise come morning.

Flash

Driving home in the dark, you become acutely aware of how dangerous light can be.

Bah, I Say

There are few things more disheartening than getting your final semester all lined up and ready to go only to realize that you cannot submit it until the seventh of April.

No More Walking Around The House Naked, I Suppose

The possibility of a roommate has peaked both my interest and my curiosity, but I worry about the lack of privacy.

Sound Isolating Technology!

I am so excited about my new headphones (shiny metallic red with little skulls on them) that I am having difficulty sleeping.

Hot Chocolate Time!

You know it is time to turn on the heat in your house when you hesitate to change into 'warmer' clothing because you'll lose the heat you've already infused into the clothing you're wearing.

It's The Easter Beagle!

This is the first year I haven't slept over on Easter Eve at my parents' house and I'm not entirely certain how that makes me feel.

Damn The Slippery Moss

If you never see me again, it means I've been drug out to sea and captured my mermaids.

There Are Other Worlds Than These

The Gunslinger has infiltrated my dreams.

Seasonal Weather, How Unique

Spring is here and while I am thrilled about the reemergence of flowers and birds and whatnot, I could have done without the neon yellow coating of tree-sperm all over my car.

Harken Back To Days Of Yore

Walking with a lighted candle through the dimly lit hallways of the Cotton Exchange on a rainy morning makes me feel like I've slipped back in time.

The Double Guessing Of My Intentions

My boss' puppy has a malignant tumor and I'm afraid that every time I try to offer my condolences or support she might view it as a new employee just trying to make a good impression.

Be A Good Boy And Leave Mommy's Soul Alone

When you are alone in the house and you decide to sleep in on your day off, puppies sometimes start infiltrating your dreams.

Surprise Ending!

You wouldn't think that being fired would be the start of a new era of happiness, but that's exactly what happened.

Come With Me Or Be Left Behind

The warm weather tempts me to forsake all of my commitments and run to the water.

Meh, Furniture

Sitting on the floor makes me happy.

Mudding Makes Me Merry

In an age filled with 'next generation' video graphics, I find great pleasure in exploring text based worlds populated with images of my own imagination.

There's Gonna Be A Blackout Tonight

Tonight as I tried to fall asleep, I heard the unnerving sound of helicopters repeatedly circling the area around my home and it made me realize just how little we really know about what is going on in our own part of the world.

Water Soothes My Soul

I love the way my hair looks as it floats in the bath water, lit by the evening sun.

A Feeling Not Wholly Unlike Slipping Into A Favorite Pair Of Shoes

Having worked by myself at both of my new shops over the past two days, I can honestly say that I haven't been this happy in ages.

"Where Every Day Is A Holiday"

Working in the holiday shop feels delightfully familiar, not unlike slipping on a well worn pair of shoes or re-reading a favorite book.

Reminds Me Of A Queen Song

Sometimes all you really need is a day driving around town with your best friend.

I'm Surprised, To Say The Least

Within twenty-four hours, I've gone from having a job, to not having a job, to having two jobs.

Going Down, Down, Down

When Blogger goes down, it makes updating a journal on a daily basis rather difficult.

Cotton Exchange, How I've Missed Ye

My new life begins tomorrow and I cannot wait.

I'm Feeling Like A Lost Cause

I came to the coffee shop because I couldn't stand to be alone in the house that is always too small but now is far too large, but now that I am surrounded by people I realize that the one person I cannot escape from is me.

Now If Only I Could Figure Out How To Convert Free Time Into Credit Payments

Whenever I get frustrated about the number of hours B&N has allotted me, I need to remind myself that less hours equals more free time and that that is more important than money.

What Happens When I'm Discovered?

I've recently found myself attending Unity but I am having a hard time aligning myself with some of their ideas and I feel false sitting in the audience.

Garlic Is Our Friend

Buttery Garlic popcorn leaves much to be desired.

Today Is For Joy

My computer has come back to me, more or less whole, and thanks be to the IRS to returning some of the money it had held hostage.

Tis An Unstable Path At Best

To follow my heart is the best that I can do.

Makes Me Ideal For Retail

I smile when I'm angry and I laugh when I'm nervous so it doesn't really come as much surprise that I have been described as 'difficult to read'.

He Isn't Much Of A Viking, Admittedly

I cannot help but think of the Swedish Chef when listening to Otyg.

Falling Asleep In Bed Just Doesn't Compare

One of the most divine pleasures in life is falling asleep on the couch.

In The Midst Of Mournful Devotions

While dressing for church (the very word feel odd on my tongue) my mind floods with memories of Sunday mornings past: pancakes, the braiding of hair, a dollar in the white envelope, cherry cough drops, and the overwhelming feeling of being out of place.

I Didn't Mean To Bring You Down

I just want to apologize to everyone who reads my blog.

It's Been A Bad Day, Please Don't Take My Picture

Just when you think everything that could go wrong has already happened and you're getting used to the idea, your hard drive dies and you start questioning your stance on the whole thing.

With A Smile From Ear To Ear

Watching a small child walk up to my register with an armload of books almost as tall as she is gives me hope for the future.

Little Accomplishments Make Such A Difference

Since going off one of my meds, I've lost five pounds!

A Bit Of Kindness Would Go Leagues

I think that despite everything I can do to the contrary or to attempt to prevent it, I am depressed about my recent job status but I don't know how to fix it.

Every Story Has A Twist

Should I view this as an opportunity for change?

Go Forth, Young One, While There Is Yet Time

Beautiful days like this make me mourn the time I spend inside.

Words On Skin

I've always wanted someone to write poetry on my body with a quill.

I Will Always Be A Poet And A Spaceman

I have to be comfortable in the fact that if I were to lose my job, the world would not come to an end, the walls of my home will not come crashing down at my feet, and beyond everything else, I will persevere.

He Gave Me Flowers That Will Never Wilt - I Keep Them With Me Always

I pride myself in not craving the useless, temporary, consumeristic goods that most people throw about on days like today but sometimes, in moments of weakness, I - too - wish for a flower that I know will die in a matter of days and cost far more than we can afford to throw at something as such.

Imagine How The Grandparents In Willy Wonka Felt

You learn a lot about a person after laying on a couch with them for a week.

Snuggle With Me, My Immune Buddy

I'm so happy that my dogs cannot catch the flu.

Existentialism On The Brink

You know you're running a high fever when you cannot be certain what is dream and what is reality.

Pick Your Reading Materials Carefully

Gene Wilder comes to me in a dream, surrounded by produce, and filled with questions for me about his auto-biography.

Beyond My Control

Physical weakness has always frightened me in ways that mental weakness has not - my body is inlaid with time bombs in the guise of malformed genes.

Lamentations Of A Sickie

Human bodies are far too fragile; you raise their core temperature five degrees and their brains begin to cook.

"I Have News"

It's a boy!

Rinse The Brush Before Moving On

I have to be careful not to allow one small occurrence to tint the memories of this wonderful day.

Triple Birthday Extravaganza!

I'm so very lucky to have such great co-workers.

I've Been With You Such A Long Time

The beautiful weather today reminded me of riding down the highway with her after leaving Eagle Island, dancing in our seats and singing along to Queen's You're My Best Friend.

Exotic!

Using mango salsa feels everyday and commonplace until I tell someone about it.

Sometimes Dreams Do Come True

Laying together on the couch - nestled against one another, fingers gently, ever so slightly, touching - we read.

I Yearn For Beauty

Flipping through 'how to paint flowers with watercolors' books for inspiration and references for Micah makes me wish that I had room in my tiny house for a studio.

She's An Old Lady Now

Happy birthday bestest friend!

Yeah, I Was That Kid

It has always bothered me that in the story of Goldilocks three identical bowls of porridge cool at remarkably different rates.

More Than Simply Ink On Paper

There is a particularly delightful rush of emotion that occurs when you realize that you are passing on one of your favorite childhood books to someone who may one day feel the same way about it as you do.

Crush Into Me

I have an unusual habit of falling hard for people's voices.

An Unknown Talent!

I make excellent tea.

The Ovaries Can Stay

Damn my uterus; damn it to hell!

From An Unknown Source

Tonight, all of Wilmington smelled of woodsmoke.

Oh, The Strange Mind Of The Cartographers

My love of old maps and anything out of the ordinary have been kindly combined in this website and I cannot wait to explore it further.

In The Real Dark Night Of The Soul It Is Always Three O'Clock In The Morning

After watching The Neverending Story as a child, I had a recurring nightmare about my horse drowning in the swamp.

First Editions Of My Favorite Format Are Well Worth The Wait

The book that I have been waiting to be released for over a year has finally made its way into my outstretched hands.

Goddess Of Marshmallows

Weather like this makes me want to curl up in a nice mug of hot chocolate with a great book, using a marshmallow as a pillow with my hair flowing over the it and along the outside of the mug.

Hate Is Such A Strong Word

I hate who I become when I am not on my medicine.

One Of The Many Reasons Closing At Eleven Sucks Heartily

The weather channel is forecasting snow for tonight but my excitement is tempered with my fear of driving with ice on the roads.

Artwork Embedded In The Very Flesh

I'm contemplating the idea of a full sleeve, but the concept of the artwork itself is still rather vague at this point.

Fear Is A Powerful Motivator

I signed up for some wonderful insurance for Dan and myself through Barnes and Noble but now I'm terrified of losing my job.

Little Sponges

It is amazing how easily children learn how to speak, it seems like it would be much more difficult than it is.

This Has Been The Weirdest Winter I've Ever Seen

Freaking hot turns into damnable cold then BAM monsoon!

TGIM?

Sometimes having Monday as your Friday has its perks.

I Cannot Say That I've Ever Had A Journal Choose Me Before

Tonight while recovering (cleaning/straightening) the gift section at work, I found a journal at my knee that I could swear had not been there before, so I took it home.

Part Of Me Still Does

This is what I wanted to be when I was little.

I Can Hear Her Though The Walls

There is a woman next door who is coughing just like Betty once did.

A Handful Of Hopeful Words

Having a mound of books just waiting for me to read them gives me a feeling of deep happiness and stability.

My Soul Lives In The Trees

From the time we are children, we have been told to stay away from the woods because they are filled with danger, but I've always found cities to be far more frightening.

Tangible Yet Intangible

Once, when I was young, a boy offered me the gift of winter.

Sickness Be Damned

After almost a week of sleeping every available moment, I think that I've finally filled my reserves.

Winter Breeze Makes Me Feel Fine

As much as I hate the heat of Wilmington in the summer, there is something delightful about being able to open your windows to enjoy the breeze in January.

Mew

The pleasure I gain from taking a nap in a warm pool of sunlight makes me almost certain that I was a cat in a past life.

I Suppose I'm A Grown-Up Now

I set up my 401k account with Fidelity today.

It's Not Like They Were Going Anywhere, Anyway

I'm finally starting to love my hips.

Lots Of Cheek-Love, Anyway

If the person you kiss at midnight is the person you're going to be kissing the rest of the year, I'm going to have lots of love!

Two Entirely Different Types Of "Alone"

Her father has died and I have been left alone on New Year's Morning but not nearly as alone as she.

Out Of The Depths Of Winter

Today is a day for celebration - both the birth of a dear girl and the renewal of a cycle that shall hopefully continue for a long time yet.

Bright Sides Are Easy To Find

At least the chances of me dying in a snow storm is very, very, exceedingly low.

And No, It Has Nothing To Do With The General Populace Of The Surrounding Area

Every time I drive by Everybody's Supermarket I think of instant hot chocolate.

Blink And It Is All Over

How quickly the holidays come and fly by.

It Seems Like Such A Long Time Ago

The smell of the slowly dying Christmas tree reminds me of playing Nintendo when I was little.

As Opposed To Edible "Food-Like" Substances

It is my hope that by having been given a crock-pot for Christmas I shall take it upon myself to cook actual food for myself and my family.

I Haven't The Words

I was nearly moved to tears tonight when my boyfriend's mother (and the mother of my heart) gave me her first edition of Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters To A Young Poet.

Priceless Moments

My favorite moment this Christmas Eve was dancing to Christmas music with my father while Dan and my mother danced together in the kitchen.

Kicking Off Four Days Of Christmas!

Having Christmas two days early is a lot of fun.

Holy Crap - Floor!

I am slowly reclaiming my living room.

Inanimate Cause For Concern

It is very strange to look up from one's reading and see at least sixteen pairs of eyes staring at you from their lofty vantage points on top of the television and bookcase.

Oh, To Be Barefoot And Careless Again

I drove by my childhood home tonight and was shocked at how different it is from my vivid, Technicolor memories.

My Own Brand Of Religion

I am a firm believer in the magic of books.

They're Ruining One Of My Favorite Times Of The Year!

I cannot wait for the damn "He's The Reason For The Season" season to be over.

Perhaps He Will Offer Me Black And White Cookies And Orange Soda

There is an older man who comes into work all the time who looks just like my grandfather: every time I see him, I have to restrain myself from asking his name and searching for some glimmer of recognition in his eyes.

I Knew You Would Not Fail Us

Blessed, blessed rain.

You Don't Have To Be An Adult All The Time

Sometimes it does you a world of good to have chocolate cake for breakfast.

If You Enjoy Pain, Anyway

If you've never had a frozen quart of half and half leap from your freezer and onto your awaiting foot, please allow me to be the first to recommend it.

She Made The Zoo Special

One of my favorite memories from my childhood is feeding peanuts to the elephant at Tote-Em-In-Zoo.

We Dearly Need The Rain

As I drift off to sleep I notice that the headlights passing by the window of this unfamiliar room look like lightning.

Biding Farewell To One Of The Loveliest Minds

Terry Pratchett has early onset Alzheimer's.

Perspective

Everything depends on your perspective.

Why Is It So Hard For Them To Just Stay Put?

This is not terribly unlike what every day at work feels like for a bookseller.

Who Knows What The Future Holds

As my one year anniversary of working at Barnes and Noble quickly approaches I begin wonder if history is going to repeat itself.

Risks Worth Taking

I wished a woman Happy Hanukkah and her face broke into a smile worth a thousand chances of my being wrong about her religion.

Take What You Can Get

I am the empress of mixed blessings.

"What The Hell Is That?!"

Watching a dog who has never before encountered a washer and dryer react to the sudden and unexpected noises that occur when one is using said machines is both (largely) amusing and (minimally) frustrating.

After A Year, Clotheswashing Can Now Happen At Home

After all of the drama and issues surrounding the acquisition and installation of the new washer and dryer I can finally say that it is working wonderfully and I am amazingly happy.

No Way - I Call Shenanigans

How the hell is it already December?

I Can Think Of A Few Sounds, Though

I do not have the words to properly respond to this.

I'm Just A Cloud Watching The Moon Rise

It pleases me that I am not so far removed that I am unable to stand with my face tilted towards the sky and bask in the awe-inspiring glow of the waxing moon.

The Daily Grind Is Wearing Me Away

How can you discern when you are working a job that you enjoy for the job itself and begin working because you are afraid of the loss of security leaving would bring?

Christmas Tree O' Christmas Tree

How does everything look so right in your light?

Like A Ghost Into The Fog

In my dream it was cold and wet and windy but all I wanted to do was see the ocean.

Bun In The Oven!

I'm going to be an aunt again and I'm so excited.

Comptine d'Un Autre Été

This is exactly what I needed.

Only Then Are The Colors Vibrant Enough To Satisfy Me

This is a wonderful city to drive around in the rain.

The Pros Totally Outweigh The Cons

The only downsides I've found to getting mounds of free books from Paperbackswap are not knowing which one to start first, wanting to jump into each one as they come in, and feeling guilty about the ones I've already begun.

We've Had Enough Of These Military Scoreboards - These Politicians' Wars

On the way to work today I saw two older men standing on a street corner with signs encouraging withdrawal from Iraq and I was overwhelmed with the desire to park my car, shake their hands, and join them.

My Campaigning Platform

Snow not snowcones in November!

I'm Thankful For Tastiness

I am so excited about the possibility of Thanksgiving Pancakes!

Sad But True

I am actually looking forward to being responsible for all of my expenses come my birthday this year because it means that I will finally be able to leave my mother behind.

So Much Is At Stake

After reading my cousin's blog I am reminded that every generation strives to be better than the previous; reoccurring exclamations declaring that we will not act this way, we will make better decisions, and should we forget why we are making an effort, to look to our parents and their generation for reminders of what we have to face should we fail.

Now Everyone Act Surprised

I think that I've changed my mind: I want to be a librarian.

Such Things Are Important On Frosty Nights

Love is asking for a soda and having him bring home a twelve pack too.

More Reasons To Hate Westaff

Leave Santa alone.

Time Never Flies By Quicker Than When It Is Vacation Time

How can six days have possibly passed since my last day at work?

Who? Who?

There is an owl outside of my window!

From The Latin "Speciōsus" Meaning "Good-Looking"

When I think about my plans for the future and how they might turn out, I fear that they are specious: plausible but wrong.

That Doesn't Stop Me From Trying

I like to feel that I'm making a difference even though the companies that could are basing their donations on a stupid website.

Yay For Win Win Situations!

Playing FreeRice is a wonderful way to feel smart, increase your vocabulary, and help give food to the hungry.

Where Science Should Fear To Tread

Midichlorians ruined The Force for me.

Heralding In The Frost Warning

The seasonal switch from a/c to heat was celebrated tonight with high fives and hot cocoa.

But...I Like Cake!

I am excited to possibly know what is causing my fatigue and tummy issues but I am wary of what sort of long term affect it might have on my life.

The Unabridged Genius

The estates of several dead writers are releasing the unedited versions of well known works and I cannot wait to read them.

Thanks Scrubs!

You just have to trust that whatever is supposed to happen will happen.

Leave The Leaves Alone!

I am morally opposed to raking because the leaves are there for a reason: they insulate the plants during the winter, they decompose and nourish the soil, and they make me happy when I see the beautiful fall colors.

So Much For The Upstanding Morals Of The Good Old Days

I never realized just how skeevy the song "Baby It's Cold Outside" is until really listening to it today at work.

The Fact That It Was Free Probably Helps

I never imagined that I'd be so excited over a washer and dryer.

How Can We Have Waited This Long?

Next year we are carving jack o' lanterns!

I Don't Care If It Is "All Natural"

My least favorite part of the tattoo process is slathering myself in corn oil based "Ink Fixx" because it makes me smell like a fry station in a diner and feels like Vaseline.

Permanence Has Its Perks

Now where ever I may go I shall have flowers, even in the dead of winter.

Little Puzzles

After using calculators almost exclusively for close to a year at work, doing the math in my head is refreshing and fun!

Insider Tips

In my experience, if someone is wearing a shirt that says "I'm With The Band" they aren't.

The Dehydrated Marshmallows Are My Favorite Part!

Hot chocolate weather is finally here!

You Can't Have It Both Ways

Only in North Carolina can there be a severe drought and a flood warning at the same time.

They Should Live In The Ocean, Not The Colon

You realize that you're getting old when polyps are not longer friendly sea creatures but forebearers of cancer.

I Somehow Doubt That Was Her Intention

Every time I see Ann Coulter's book How To Talk To A Liberal (If You Must) I get the song "How To Talk To An Angel" stuck in my head.

Stagnation Breeds Destruction

I need to be challenged at work because the alternative is me losing interest, calling out repeatedly, and eventually becoming so dispassioned that I must either quit or become horribly depressed.

Getting Up At Six Has Some Perks

The sky was amazing this morning, filled with vivid pinks and purples, all on a swirled cloud backdrop.

They Deserve A Better Destiny

I have so many half finished thoughts in my draft folder that I fear may never see the light of day.

I'm Not Scared But She's Making A Mess

I think that my dead neighbor-lady might be haunting my kitchen.

Now There Is Something I Can Get Behind

Today is National Chocolate Cupcake Day but as I found this out only a few moments ago I shall have to wait until next year to celebrate.

My Confession

I am sometimes pleased when he leaves, as I enjoy my solitude at times, but I am never happier than when he returns.

Sometimes I Wish It Were True

It breaks my heart to hear one of my dearest friends talk about how she hopes that God will cure her mother of Paranoid Schizophrenia.

Images Of Bleak Beauty

No sooner do I realize that I do not have a camera that I find a dozen scenes I want to capture.

The Days Leading Up To These Were More Important Than Those Which Are Left

She only has a matter of days.

The Band Is Playing Somewhere, And Somewhere Hearts Are Light

Somewhere the leaves are changing colors and drifting to the ground instead of staying the same shade of green they always have been and remaining steadfastly attached to the trees.

Casper Is A Strange Name For A Tabby (Pumpkin Spice!) Cat

On the eve of my Duke appointment, I met a most wonderful kitty cat while sitting on the front steps of a house that I wish was mine while enjoying a season that does not seem to occur in my own town.

A Large Gathering Of Pumpkins Is Something To Celebrate

The sight of the annual pumpkin invasion of a local churchyard reminds me that while it does not necessarily feel like autumn, Halloween is quickly approaching.

They Can See You

When I am alone at night and the dogs start barking like mad at something outside, I begin to wish that we had blinds.

Change Isn't Always Good

Sometimes they don't move you from ICU because you are better; sometimes they just can't do anything else for you.

My Escape Route

I just want to curl up in my chair and read and read and read until I cease to exist.

Where Do I Belong?

I'd like to see the world from a different angle.

Hiss...Boom!

Tonight I was with my nephew when he saw fireworks for the first time, and I was filled with hope and happiness.

My Library ... My Children

The slow acquisition of first editions into my collection is both exciting and maddening.

HP Revisited

One thousand people all gathered in one place, with one common goal is a terribly frightful force to reckon with.

Openness Has Certain Perils

These thoughts are partitioned off for a reason and should I happen to feel a need to discuss them with you, I would hope that you have enough common decency to keep this new-found information to yourself.

I Get Such Nice Compliments

"I've never seen someone relaxing in the chair, reading a book while getting a tattoo before."

Preaching Hate To The Population

You know the day is going to be bad when the first book you sell is the new Ann Coulter.

Walnuts, Pineapple, Balsamic Vinegar, Citrus...

Why must I crave the foods that cause me the greatest pain?

I Wish That Their Lives Were Different

Sometimes I get so angry about things that I cannot change that I almost work myself into a panic attack from the sheer helplessness of it all.

I'm Afraid To Look Into His Argument

Today I learned that the president of the country in which I live decided that it was a bad idea to give poor children healthcare - totally paid for by a slight increase in the cigarette tax.

How Long Have They Been This Way?

Did you know that my glasses sit crookedly on my face?

It Is Quite Lucky That I Had A Lot Of It To Begin With

I am disappointed to realize that the longer I work in retail the less tolerance I seem to have for mean, irritated, unreasonable, and/or stupid people.

Quality Reading Material

While I try not to pass judgment on people based upon the items they purchase, I cannot help but be disappointed every time someone buys a US Weekly or OK magazine.

Just In Time For Autumn

I'd forgotten how wonderful a fresh, chilled orange can be.

Bonne Nuit Monsieur Marceau

How do you mourn the passing of someone that you already thought to be dead?

Even If It Makes Me Feel Positively Naked

Sometimes, rarely, the camera sees me as I would like to be seen.

Living In The City

I miss the crickets and the fireflies.

No Destination Required

I've discovered great happiness riding in my car with my pups: wind blowing, music playing, tails and tongues wagging, joy overflowing.

Persistence?

I fear that my life may be heading in the wrong direction, but I've come too far down this road to turn around just yet - not before I round this bend to see what I may have missed.

Errors In Judgment

In this life you are allowed, and in turn forgiven, many mistakes - save the one that destroys you.

A Man With A Briefcase Can Steal More Money Than Any Man With A Gun

I used to think that all you needed was love, but now I've come to the conclusion that you probably need a bit of cash as well.

If A Equals B And B Equals C Then A Must Equal Kumquat Jam

I've never dealt well with being yelled at and, knowing that, one must wonder just what she thinks will be accomplished by screaming at me and then, in the same breath, telling me that I never come over any more.

The Sky Is A-Ready To Burst

Every time I think that I've gotten everything under (my) control and I am ready to take the much-needed snip to my financial connection to my parents (and thusly neutralizing their pressuring chip) something happens that would make it dreadfully difficult if not outright impossible to do so.

Simplest Moments Worth Remembering

Resting against his side in the back of his father's car, happiness found me at last.

Ha, Even I Can Be Straightforward Once In Awhile

I'm so glad he had a happy birthday.

But My Dreams, They Aren't As Empty

As dearly as I wish it were true, books cannot keep you warm at night.

Woosh

I cannot help but feel like this some days and I cannot accurately explain why.

So Much Depends On This Decision

Do I have the nerve to try to make it alone; to leave and search for my own life in the heights?

Come Quickly, My Heart Draws Me Outdoors

There is a faint chill in the breeze today that whispers of the promise of autumn.

She'll Be Better, If You'll Be Kind

What if I really am the terrible daughter she tells me I am?

Freedom Comes At A Price

I hate the idea that I am dependant on chemicals to maintain my current quality of life and I frequently consider stopping them altogether but it is quite difficult to foresee the ramifications of such a decision.

Why Must "Different" Always Be Interpreted As "Bad" When It Very Often Isn't?

There is a distinctly different feeling in the house when he's here; I cannot put my finger on it, but it is there - lying just below the surface.

There Comes A Time In A Young Woman's Life When She Must Cast Away Books And Learn From Experience

I wish to experience all the wonderful things that I've read about; see all of the unimaginable beauty, do all of the fantastic acts, and simply enjoy breathing the air around me.

Restful Moments

How delightful is the sensation of sitting on the couch and simply relaxing when you know that you have so much to do and a busy couple of months ahead of you?

You Can Light My Fire

I have experienced a sudden reignition of my passions and interests: photography, sign language, pottery, singing, gardening, graph paper art, knitting, music, the written word...the list goes on and on but I haven't a clue as to when I'll be able to pursue any of this.

Lesson Learned

After eating lunch with he-who-turned-from-me, I've come to the conclusion that, while I am proud of myself for giving him another chance, I do not intend to ever extend myself in that way again.

Startling Inadequatenesses

When I realize that I cannot read something that I need to be able to read, I suddenly feel like I am falling out of my chair.

Rushing In

As natural light fades, artificial lights emerge to fill the space.

Arachnoid Death Spasms

I think that my neighbor-lady killed my writing spider and, if I am able to confirm this, I may never speak to her again.

She Doesn't Know That Her Time Has Passed

In such a place as this is - so alive with speech and movement, I feel as if I am merely the ghost of a girl who once sat in the window booth of the old establishment, ages before anyone knew of the Gin Blossoms or Bud Light.

Not Unlike Peering Through A Rain-Soaked Windshield

My edges are fuzzing.

A Phone Call I Never Anticipated Making

What is the proper reaction upon finding out that someone whom, up until four years ago, you saw several times a week but were never terribly close to has died?

Fathers And Sons

I envy the ease of their relationship and genuine pleasure that they gain from one another's company.

Conundrum

What should you do when you are too sick to sleep at night but then by mid-morning you are too well to go to the doctor?

It Has Been A Long Time

The last traces of my sun-and-surf bleached-blond hair are nearing the end of their existence and, once they are gone, I will have no record of my time there.

Geological Philosophy

We are all kin to stars.

What Are You Hiding?

As much as it sounds like a trendy bumper sticker, normal people really do worry me because while 'strange' people tend to wear their quirks on their sleeves, I cannot shake the notion that 'normal' people are hiding theirs more deeply for a reason.

I Long For The Adaptations That We Have Gained And Lost

Despite the fact that I know that I should be thankful for my highly developed brain, upright posture, and opposable thumbs I find myself feeling somewhat bereft after reading through Planet Earth.

It's The Rhythm Of The Changing Tides

I have discovered that I truly enjoy the new rhythm of my life even though I can foresee it becoming overwhelming at times.

He Who Should Not Be A Manager

Anyone who uses the word 'snafu' needs to be slapped in the face.

Forever Gone Is The Idealized Mother Of My Childhood

The more I work on this post, wording and rewording the same thoughts over and over again, the more I come to realize that it all boils down to this: after my experience in Virginia, I will never look at my mother the same way again.

Authors Read And Should Therefore Know Better

The first line of a book can ruin the rest of the book for you because while you may not know how things will happen, you certainly have a pretty darn good idea what happens.

Flash And The Lines Disappear

The day's imagined and fanciful danger, self imposed via roller coasters, was dramatically foiled as the evening's reality came crashing in on us from the sky.

It Is By No Means An Irrational Fancy That, In A Future Existence, We Shall Look Upon What We Think Our Present Existence, As A Dream

Listening to someone speak at great length about one of my favorite historical figures makes him seem more of fiction than fact.

Click, Click, Click, Click, Click, Woosh, Wee!

Watching my baby sister learn that she loves roller coasters is like discovering part of myself in her that I cannot wait to cultivate further.

Next Time Has To Be An Improvement

I would be the one to travel hundreds of miles from home, towards a potentially awesome week of amusement park fun, only to get dreadfully sick for virtually the entire length of my stay.

Go, Have Fun - I'm Fine

Leaving the pups at Jean's house felt just as I would imagine taking my human children to kindergarten for the first time.

Four Months Can Be A Very Long Time

After compiling my work and school schedules today I realized for the first time just how busy these next few months are truly going to be.

Now I Know What People Mean When They Say "Eustress"

Why can things never ever be easy?

Who Comes Up With Such Things?

Today is National Rice Pudding Day and even though there are barely two hours left in 'today' and I have to be up at six, I want to rush out and buy lots of rice pudding to celebrate!

Just Because You Don't Want It To Be True Doesn't Make It So

The Yangtze River Dolphin may very well be extinct now because of the senseless destruction humans seem to spawn everywhere they roam and I cannot help but hope that they have secretly escaped their fate, even as I mourn their passing.

Tut Tut It Looks Like Rain

After an afternoon filled with promising thunderheads and nearly one-hundred percent humidity then topped off with a night punctuated with flashes of heat lightning, I cannot help but be disappointed in the lack of a decent storm.

The Small Print Will Get You Every Time

I make the best effort that I am able when it comes to spiders on the walls of my shower, but when I look up and the spider in question has moved in my direction and/or disappeared, all treaties are henceforth null and void.

Pink Floyd Made Me Write This, It Came Unbidden.

I miss him in the small hours of the day, in the breaths between thoughts, and in my waking moments when I imagine that he is still nestled into the small of my back, or me in his.

Reaching The Minds That Have Not Yet Closed

Listening to her talk about the class she is teaching in the fall makes me wish that I would follow through with my dream of teaching science to elementary school students.

Money Is Tight But That Is No Excuse For Shoddy Cookery

To the truly delightful ziti that I subjected to freezer burned broccoli and 'zesty cheese sauce' (that, truth be told, had probably lost its zest before leaving my mother's freezer): you deserved more than this abysmal fate and you have my sincere apologies.

Ctrl+A, Delete

If all of my entires were to mysteriously disappear one day, what sort of reaction would I have?

But He Can Still Be A Doggie!

I am saddened to realize that I live in an era in which Pluto has lost its status as a planet.

I Have Them All Fooled!

The credit card companies think that I'm a grown-up and a world-wide corporation thinks that I'm a grown-up, does that make me a grown-up?

Extended Aways Are A Myth

The mornings come earlier and earlier these days so I had better make the most of the nights.

It'll Even Out In The End

The pride that I experienced due to my efficiency at work tonight is almost entirely overshadowed by my fear that I've forgotten to do something important.

Lightning Flashes

All around me, thunder crashes so loudly that car alarms are set off for miles.

As Close To A Country Song As You'll Find In "These Parts"

After he kissed me and grabbed his guitar, he jumped into the back of a pick-up truck headed towards his destiny.

Blue Moon

I may have finally found the windowseat I've always hoped for, in the most unlikely of locations.

I'm A Big Kid Now

The joy that comes from actually being able to create a budget now that I've gotten my promotion is entirely more exciting than it has any right to be.

It Happens More Than You'd Think

Sometimes I check my own blog in the morning to make sure that I haven't posted in my sleep.

Shoddy Workmanship

I outright refuse to purchase a mass market paperback and will go to great lengths to replace all such editions given to me with with trade paper or cloth versions.

Ready Or Not - And Don't Look Back

Take a deep breath - one, two, three - Jump!

A Hidden World Just Beyond The Edge Of Perception

Today I saw a mailbox along a stretch of road that was nothing but woods and I wondered to whom it might belong.

Watching Waiting Rising Falling Listening Calling Drifting

Watching him play from my little mentally-walled-off part of the bar, I can actually relax enough to enjoy the show.

We Only Come Out At Night

I'd love to climb up a mountain and lie on my back under the stars, gazing up into eternity.

I Read Your Book And I Find It Strange That I Know That Girl And I Know Her World A Little Too Well

The process of cataloging my books is not wholly unlike excavating the site of my youth.

Please Be Okay. Please.

I'm so worried about my little puppy.

Newfound Respect For The Plight Of The "Hunt-and-Peck'ers"

What I wouldn't do for a standard numerical keypad right about now.

I Don't Want To Wonder If This Is A Blunder

But what if I am getting in over my head?

Apres Moi, Le Deluge

I cannot help but feel dramatic with such music about.

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star

Watching the embers of a slowly dying fire twinkle like the lights on a Christmas tree from an idealized childhood allows me to drift off in peace.

Never Again Will She Be Alone

I am someone's Irish Rose.

And A Piece Slides Into Place

Tonight, while putting books on the shelf by candle and lamplight, attended by my dogs (who were seeking my company due to the approaching storm), is the first time I've truly felt this as 'my room'.

Eyes Open, Arms Wide

My chance viewing of the heat lightning illuminating the previously undetectable levels of clouds makes me wonder what else may have escaped my notice.

Five Dollar Wisdom

Everybody needs help sometime.

Timing Is Everything

A touch of kindness from across the sea and across town makes the stress of one's family that much more bearable.

Those Who Cannot Protect Themselves

I have always been, am, and will always be a protector of children and animals.

We Must Be Careful About What We Pretend To Be

As I was sitting in my nephew's bedroom, I looked around at his toys and books and realized that I am not nearly as removed from my childhood as I would like to believe that I am.

Be Kind To Those Who Sacrifice Their Lives To Further Your Own

I cannot help but feel especially bad for the lobsters waiting to be bought for dinner, not for the end result of being boiled while alive, but rather the weeks of starvation leading up to that point.

Every Man Has A Rainy Corner of His Life Whence Comes Foul Weather Which Follows Him

Why must I always dream of winter during summer and spring during winter?

Do You Realize How Idiotic You Sound?

People who refer to themselves in third person or in the 'Royal We" should be smacked.

Deine Schritte Sind So Schön

There are some days when only German industrial metal will do.

When Life And Computers Exist In Parallel

To update and restart but risk losing everything or to live with not ever knowing of what might have been: which is worse?

It's The Time Of The Season For Loving

Life is too short to hold such disdain for certain seasons - there are things to love about each.

You're Always On My Mind

After realizing that if I had taken the medicine prescribed for my migraines with the medicine prescribed for my craziness I could have died from internal bleeding, I lost the rest of my already meager amount of trust in the medical professionals in my life.

But Everything Looks Perfect From Far Away

You cannot take the pictures with you.

License Numbers And Their Affect On The Known World

How would my life change if my parents were never really married?

The Groaning City In The Gathering Dark

The summer twilight sky was the color of the dress blues worn by the young soldiers waiting to be sent off to see their first and final battles, far away from home.

My Secret Garden

I'm going to grow beautiful plants and make a peaceful garden filled with life and stone walkways and ivy covered arches and no one can stop me!

Being True To Yourself Shouldn't Be This Painful To Others

The look in my father's eyes when he saw my tattoo was worse than when he learned that I had intended to move out without his permission, the oddness of which does not escape my grasp.

Hidden Colors

Even though no one can see my tie dye bootlaces, they make me feel happy.

Nervousness Makes My Voice Shake

I have never been more thankful for the "press three to listen to your message" and "press four to rerecord your message" voice mail options than I am this morning while attempting to leave a message for the man who will play a deciding role in my future.

Dream A Sweet Dream For Me

I found my glass pen today while cleaning and I suddenly wished for beautiful words to commit to paper while sitting under a shady tree with a cat curled up at my feet.

I Cannot Shed These Tokens Of My Past So Easily

My day, in art.

Bring On The Wonder

It is truly amazing the difference a day can make.

Think What You May Have Missed

The lost sleep was totally worth it.

Take A Little Trip With Me

I am thrilled to finally have the time to read all of the books that I have amassed throughout the years - each one containing an entire world that I now have the privilege of exploring.

It Seems That Silence In This Modern Age Is So Very Hard To Find

I wrap myself in thoughts until they smother me.

In My Heart I Remain A Clever Imposter

It is utterly exhausting to have to pretend to be happy and cheerful when you are anything but.

Speaking For Those Who Have No Voices Of Their Own

They tore down my flowers because they were deemed 'not pretty enough' by a board of meddling old biddies with nothing better to do than to destroy the self esteem of helpless young plants and then having the audacity to charge us for it.

Because, This Is Totally Helpful

On the day of the highly anticipated change of OS, my hard drive died upon restarting - leaving me without my old system and with but a teasing taste of the new one.

Simple Truth

A full pantry is a happy pantry, but an empty wallet is a sad wallet, so it is highly fortunate that my happiness is not particularly attached to my current level of wealth.

Why Does This Make Me So Sad?

"Oh, let him have his day in the sun."

Modern Day Icarus

Last night I dreamt that I could fly but I got cancer from being too close to the power lines.

I Used To Sing On The Mountains, Then The Ocean Lost Its Way

The waves of silence that have been lapping at my feet for so long have finally overtaken me.

And If I Said, "O It's In Your Head On This Sea-Drift Sun," What Can You Do?

And now I have a difficult decision to make: I can either feel good emotionally or I can feel good physically- one or the other, but not both.

More Unkindness Than Anyone Should Endure

After revisiting my youth in conversation with her tonight, I've come to the conclusion that she needs to get out there as soon as possible.

Disappointing But True

Just because it is organic does not mean that it will be tasty.

A Bit Of Blunt Honesty

The only reason why I want to get married sooner than later is because I'd like for it to happen while my grandmother still knows who I am.

In Time Grass Becomes Milk

Having unwavering faith in someone, despite all of their attempts to convince you that they are hopeless, is a very important thing to do.

At A Snail's Pace

Slowly, ever so slowly, the gaps are being bridged.

Leave Me Swinging With The Breeze

There are few things sweeter than sitting on a porch swing during a warm summer thunderstorm with the one that you love, arm in arm.

And I Never Wish To Escape

American Gods is one of those rare books that within mere moments of opening the cover you will have been wholly engulfed by the world that had lain in wait for you to stumble, foolishly, close by.

No, It's Not Me

Is it odd that my first thought upon hearing that my leg might have to be amputated is that I am going to miss my toes?

From A Little Shell At The Bottom Of The Sea

Hurricane Season is my favorite part of summer because it is only after a very bad storm that treasures from the deep can be found at low tide without hordes of tourists crushing them beneath their feet.

Let The Sunshine In

This would be a whole lot funnier if I wasn't so afraid of the future it foretells.

A Legitimate Excuse

I cannot help but feel that calling into work when you are actually sick is a waste of an opportunity to escape the doldrums of a normal working day and experience something new.

When You Dream About Death, This Is The Sort Of Post You Might Make

Can you imagine how difficult and time consuming it must be to match dental records to a dead person's teeth?

There Are Many Things Worse Than Death

Just because I support the pro-choice movement does not mean that I do not mourn the loss of life.

They Are The Future

Watching children as young as eight perform The Tempest in the original Shakespearean English is very humbling and inspiring.

Vibrating Quicker Than The Eye Can See

Today I took advantage of the 'Buy Two Get One Free' sale at work to buy six new books but now I am at a virtual standstill as I attempt to decide which one to read first.

Oh, My Kingdom For An Elephant

My childhood memories of the circus are directly at odds with my knowledge of how they tend to treat their animals and it is for that reason that I am uncertain if I will ever attend again.

Single Mothers

There has been a rash of virgin births recently.

Little Hideaway

Whenever I need to think or to lose myself, I drive on long stretches of highway while listening to music and singing at the top of my lungs - all by myself.

Impactful Forgetfulness

I'm so afraid that I am going to forget to tell them something important that will end up having a great impact on my diagnosis.

Chin Up, Put On A Pair Of These Roseys

You know that you've been working in retail too long when you can be on the verge of breaking and still be able to pass off a smile and a hearty 'hello-how-are-you' as genuine.

I Catch A Brief Reflection Of What You Could And Might Have Been

As I sat in my car mourning the surprise death of my friend, I realized that if we had not stayed at that awful place I may never have found out.

But As The Scenery Grows, I See In Different Lights

The idea that this might be my last semester at CFCC would be exciting if I wasn't so unsure about the steps that come after.

The More You Know

I feel like this today.

Wee!

I get an inordinate amount of joy from making graphs from my schedule information.

Fleeing From Myself, To Myself

When I don't take my medicine my mind starts to fragment and expand until it becomes difficult to grasp and I enjoy the experience until I remember where such things tend to lead.

Sleeping With Ghosts

What could be more romantic than ghost hunting in European castles?

I'm Not Really That Unknowing

Sometimes I pretend not to know about something that I do, in fact, know about in order to have an opportunity to listen to someone speak.

Sentinels Don't Make Good Pillows

A puppy looking out of the window while laying on the bed makes a good pillow - until something outside catches her attention and she shifts from pillow-mode to sentinel-mode.

And Peace All Around May Be Your Fortune

With the quality of the rest of a woman's life potentially hanging in the balance, I am afraid to be hopeful.

Have I Failed Her?

Discovering a box of books from my childhood is like unearthing a time capsule of who I wanted to be when I grew up.

Please Be Careful, I Exist In Someone Else's Head

I feel like a feather that is drifting in the wind, aimlessly.

To Boldly Go Where No Man Has Gone Before

I am thrilled to be living in an era where science fiction is rapidly turning into science fact.

I Want To Go!

I get very upset when I see people going to far off lands simply to be able to tell their well-to-do friends that they've been there, instead of wanting to go there for the place itself.

Escape Is Imminent

Sometimes I feel that my soul or consciousness or what have you is not very well attached to this moral coil and may break free at any moment.

We Are Not As So Far Removed As We Would Like To Think

Reading about the Kent State Shootings has reaffirmed my fear that the freedoms in the "Land of the Free" are truly more of an illusion than a reality.

Open Your Eyes and Wake Up

The world has gone mad and it seems like hardly anyone has noticed.

Take A Look Around

Beauty is everywhere.

I Need To Work On That

Upon imagining my mother's funeral and being asked to speak, my reaction is always the same, "I don't really have anything to say".

I Couldn't Tell You How It Really Was

When I phoned to check her condition after the surgery, I could not be certain if she was really pleased to hear from me, or if it was simply the drugs speaking.

Holding You Is Like Cupping Water

Damn you, writers of House, for making me think about things that I don't want to have to face right now...that I do not want to be real.

She's Not Chosen This Path

Observing my great aunts interacting with my grandmother gives me a peek into a possible future that I am afraid of.

Bitchin' Birthday

I must admit that seeing my mother get angry over "Stitch And Bitch" and not being able to punish me was a particularly delightful joy.

Only Love Can Live In My Dream

Sleep is my refuge.

I Always Try To Imagine Them As Innocent, Hopeful Children

I think that there must be some sort of compassion-removal process when you become a teacher at a community college because I refuse to believe that they were this heartless before.

Somewhere Out There

The possibility that this newfound planet may contain life is brimming with incredible excitement and, admittedly, some reservations about what the inhabitants of this planet may do with this information.

But The Music's Got The Magic, It's Your One Chance For Escape

I found out tonight that I am going to be taught violin by the Concert Master of the Wilmington Symphony Orchestra for free.

Happiness Is Not A Fish You Can Catch

I hope it works this time.

Maybe You Might Have Some Advise To Give On How To Be Insensitive

I cannot stand sitcoms because they make me feel so uncomfortable when embarrassing situations arise, no matter how 'comedic' they may be.

I'll Wish, And The Thunder Clouds Will Vanish

Note To Self : Stop feeling weird all of the damn time, it's getting old.

Time Slips Away From You

I've always loved the front porch on the house in which I grew up: wrought iron railings, plenty of room for potted plants and dogs and cats and wishing upon stars before bed.

It's The Hip New Place To Be

Today I went to the laundromat for the first time and the only person I made eye contact with was a three year old boy, with whom I share an affinity for Starbursts.

Laughter Is Wonderful

I never tickled Bob, but now I wish that I had.

And Whisper'd

The house does seem unnaturally quiet now and I am not entirely sure how that makes me feel.

I Wish That Things Were Different

Whenever I listen to songs about relationships between fathers and daughters or between mothers and daughters I always get amazingly sad - moved to tears.

What Is One To Do?

I have, in one of my away messages, a quote in which the phrase, "God damn it" happens to occur and for some reason my mother (and now, thanks to her overwhelming concern, my father) have decided to send a message to me stating that, "it is offensive and that (I) should change it" every time they see the away message.

Buvons à Nos Souvenirs

Evenings filled with people and refreshments and activities is just enough distraction to divert my attention away from the other things.

Yay - Crutches!

Even when you are keenly aware of how lucky you are to have an ability, having it taken away is a very eye-opening experience.

Utter Disbelief

"I think you're beautiful."

I'm So Glad It's Over

The IRS: the super nice people who can make you be so afraid that you forget your own zip code.

Math Test Vs Photography

The lamp is casting some lovely shadows tonight and the leaves are glistening with dew.

Parsley, Sage, Rosemary And Thyme

If I tell you that I cannot do the things that you ask of me, let me know that if at least I try then I'll be your true love.

Wash Away The World

I dearly wish that it would rain.

Why Yes, I Do Have Sunday Off...

I originally set up my work schedule in such a way as to avoid the entire 'dealing with family' issue but then that part of my mind (subset 1) was overpowered by the part of my mind (subset 2) that either (a) enjoys seeing my mind (subset 1) in uncomfortable situations or (b) realizes that this may be one of the last Easters when my grandmother will actually know what is going on - and switched shifts so that those two events may take place.

Reasons Why I'm Glad B&N Has Carpet

It's always frightening when you see someone else's interpretation of your mindset without having any knowledge of you in any way.

I Wish Things Were Different

I don't want to miss out on the festivities but after everything, I don't know how comfortable I would be going over there.

Unwelcome Visitor

These acute bouts of depression make me worry that it might be coming back to stay.

I Was Starting At The Sky, Just Looking For A Star

I wish that I had more time.

Does Summer Come For Everyone?

What are you afraid of?

Life Imitates Life

After seeing a little red fox last night, I realized that it had no fear of us, and for the first time in ages, I felt like all the bad things that are constantly happening may eventually even themselves out.

Balls Of Goo!

Chandra doesn't like sticky balls in her hair but she does love to throw them against various materials to watch them slowly ooze off!

I Lost My Head Again

Around nine o'clock tonight, I realized that it was Thursday and not only have I not done this week's homework but I've been neglecting my blog.

The Clock Never Stops, Never Stops, Never Waits

The past feels closer than the present and it is getting more and more noticeable every day.

Can Humans Do What Prophets Say?

I feel that I was born to live a life of great purpose, but the thought, "Is this all there is? Is this truly what I was set forth to accomplish?" only strikes me when I am doing nothing at all to work towards that end result due to lack of motivation or lack of time.

It's The Rarity That Makes Them So Precious

Kind words, freely given and with no underlying intention, are often the most piercing and far reaching of them all.

Why Do They Hate Our Mother Earth?

At work, I always ask people if they need a bag today because I feel that it is important to conserve petroleum products whenever possible and it frustrates me to no end when healthy people demand a bag for a single item (doubly so when that sing item is a magazine that is already in a bag!).

But We Cannot Cling To The Old Dreams Anymore

I'm tired of feeling so damn alone in my own home.

I Dig It When You Have A Smile On Your Face

It is truly the small things in life that reaffirm that all is not for naught.

These Things Happen

Dan thinks I'm crazy.

Nothing Really Matters

Little actions cease to matter almost immediately while the more 'impressive' events simply require one to zoom further out from the time line for the ramifications to cease to exist.

It Just Wasn't Like The Old Days Anymore

I'm so afraid of losing everything that which I love that, at times, it leaves me unable to properly function until the thought passes, which makes me feel positively helpless.

Echoes

I often dream of places I've never seen and people I've never met so I frequently wonder why they are calling and how best to answer them.

It's A Sin To Be Fading Endlessly

But what I am to do with this new information?

But It Never Made Sense To Them Anyway

On the way home from work tonight, the Cat Power song "I Don't Blame You" from the album "You Are Free" came on my ipod and it was suddenly as if one part of my consciousness was speaking to another part, "You are free. I don't blame you for not knowing. No one seems to anymore."

They Made My Back Hurt.

I had my first "damn teenagers" moment tonight and I've never felt more old.

Farewell, Dear Friend

Words cannot properly describe the spectrum of emotions I felt tonight when I was oh-so-offhandedly informed that a dog that I've grown up with died several weeks ago and no one had the decency to tell me.

But It's Calm Under The Waves, In The Blue Of My Oblivion

The idea of being the reincarnation of a lost princess of a underground kingdom who must go through various trials and tasks strikes a chord deep within me asking, "Where is my labyrinth?".

Pastimes: Something With Which To Pass The Time

Now for something directly to the point: I hadn't realized how much I missed playing D&D until very recently.

For The Love Of Anything Vaguely Holy, Vagina!

Vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina.

Watching and Interpreting

The way his father and step-mother interact, as compared to the way my parents interact is incredibly eye-opening and, in some ways, it makes me very sad.

Apple Blossoms and Snowflakes

This odd cusp of seasons leaves me wanting spring to be here now and yet, I find myself still (simultaneously) holding on to the last hopes of snow.

Mmm...dorkiness!

I'd love to have dinner with Benjamin Folds and Alfred Yankovic and you cannot convince me otherwise.

Good Morning Sunshine!

The absolute best way to wake up is by someone yelling at you about something you thought to be insignificant and because of the way they are ranting on about it makes it impossible for you to convey to them that you understand where they are coming from.

Springing Eternal

I'm still trying to figure out just how you can look at me the same way, after all of this time.

There's This Girl I Can't Get Out Of My Head

I miss my best friend.

Sugar Loaf

My skin smells the way that a child's does after s/he comes inside from playing on a spring day.

I'm Sorry or Tick Tock

Sometimes I worry that he's right about me and I just don't know it yet.

Happiness Is Not A Fish You Can Catch

I've come to the realization that happiness is something that occurs, overwhelmingly, in tiny moments and should be held onto with all of one's might because that is the best, nay, only way to make it through the intermediate times.

Why Is that?

Sometimes the words of others can more accurately describe one's feelings than one's own words.

Manifestations

When you hear a knocking in the bathroom, it's best not to call out to it unless you are prepared for the reply.

We Are Evil And Divine

I need not venture outside of my mind for these things, for why would I wish to leave the livid, fanciful colors and architecture that I have created?

Waiting Room Plants

The plants in my living room make me feel as if I am in a medical waiting room - like I'm perpetually waiting for something and I haven't the faintest idea what that something may be.

I Can't Find Meaning

As I was sitting in the hallway waiting to register for my mini-session classes, Our Lady Peace's Is Anybody Home? started playing and I suddenly felt as if I was sinking through the floor.

Defeatest

I'm always afraid of getting excited about something for fear of it not working out.

Time Management

How ironic is it that I took a job at a bookshop so that I could have money to buy books that I now do not have time to read because of the job that I took to buy the books in the first place?

American Priorities

I cannot understand why America, one of the richest countries in the world, cannot afford to take care of the medical needs of its people.

For Where Have They Gone?

The fear of misplaced thoughts is the driving force behind my fervent obsession with writing.

Bewitched

Only in the 60's would they show a pregnant woman drinking martinis on television.

Ever So Slightly

There are times, when he is away at practice, I can feel the house move.

Shallow Water

I have been dreaming almost every night about walking in shallow water - be it low tide at the ocean or through a stream - and I wonder what that means.

Transient Moral Debate

As I was falling asleep last night, I thought of the entry that I wanted for the next day but as I made my best effort to commit it to memory, I knew it would be futile, if not entirely against the spirit of the blog.

Dweller on the Threshold

I'm starting to get comfortable at work and that often seems to be the precursor of something dramatic.

Current Events

After being on the phone with my mother for almost two hours, I realized that the void between our respective views of the world is wider than I had previously imagined.

Peter Pan

Not even peanut butter is safe anymore.

REM

My dreams are starting to feel more like reality and the edges of reality are starting to dissolve like sugar into hot tea.

Mother Cloning

When I expressed concern over turning into my mother at some point in my life, my cousin oh so articulately pointed out, "You don't have to worry about it, because you're far too Sarah," I suddenly felt as if sleep would not be avoiding me any longer.

Unnerving

Coming into an unlocked house is particularly frightening when you realize that you have to deal with whatever you find behind that door all by yourself - alone.

Distance

The most helpless feeling comes from not being able to physically be there for someone when they are in need because despite all of the good that can come from text-only communication, it falls sharply short of a real hug.

All The Wrong Reasons

Sometimes I feel like the only reason why certain people in my life love me is because of the things that I can do for them.

Asleep

Happiness is looking around your living room and realizing that everyone is sleeping peacefully in your presence.

Dinner And A Movie

It's quite spectacular how such a stereotypical evening (in theory) can make you feel so much closer to someone that you've known for years, but, perhaps, every truly known until now.

Visitation

To have awoken on this morning to find that Spring has come to visit me brings my spirit aloft and fills it with hope.

Battle or Such Is His Gift To Me

At the end of a day filled with wonderful activities that which fought to keep my mind in the present and away from the abyss, his final smile and words, "Birthday Girl!" were enough to carry me through the night on the wings of hope.

Does It Make Things Any More Real?

Why is it that I often find myself back at this page of my own creation, staring at the words that I've strung together, struggling to ground myself in their supposed meaning?

Birthday

With every passing year my birthday feels increasingly less real.

Frostbitten Flowers

I always feel badly for the flora here because due to the craziness that is Wilmington weather they never know when Spring is truly here, and when it is only Winter masquerading as Spring.

Hugs

A wise woman once said, "The internet is ineffective when it comes to conveying hugs," and sadly, she could not be more correct.

Colors

Here's a cheery thought: imagine the day that we look through our telescopes and discover that our red shift has gone blue.

Retrospective Regret

No one should ever be sick on their birthday, but that doesn't stop me from wishing that I'd taken the (albeit small) gift to her when I was informed that she was feeling better.

Biorhythm

This perpetual cycle of feelings of overwhelming sadness, senseless panic, and irrational happiness is slowly driving me mad - not because of the feelings themselves but because I cannot pinpoint their origin.

Farewell

It is my supreme displeasure, dearest tree, to inform you that you have but one week to remain in our lives and I can but offer you my condolences - the worthlessness of which I am painfully aware.

A Can Of Paint And A Straight Razor

Discussing renovation plans makes everything seem more permanent.

Urges

Sometimes I have this overwhelming desire to cover myself with tattoos - to be engulfed by beautiful art.

Heather's Funeral

I think that her passing was not nearly as painful as watching people that I've grown up with in such pain.