Monday, December 31, 2007
Out Of The Depths Of Winter
Today is a day for celebration - both the birth of a dear girl and the renewal of a cycle that shall hopefully continue for a long time yet.
Sunday, December 30, 2007
Bright Sides Are Easy To Find
At least the chances of me dying in a snow storm is very, very, exceedingly low.
Saturday, December 29, 2007
And No, It Has Nothing To Do With The General Populace Of The Surrounding Area
Every time I drive by Everybody's Supermarket I think of instant hot chocolate.
Friday, December 28, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
It Seems Like Such A Long Time Ago
The smell of the slowly dying Christmas tree reminds me of playing Nintendo when I was little.
Labels:
children/childhood,
death,
fun and games,
holidays,
memories
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
As Opposed To Edible "Food-Like" Substances
It is my hope that by having been given a crock-pot for Christmas I shall take it upon myself to cook actual food for myself and my family.
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
I Haven't The Words
I was nearly moved to tears tonight when my boyfriend's mother (and the mother of my heart) gave me her first edition of Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters To A Young Poet.
Labels:
books,
gift,
holidays,
moments of happiness,
mother,
reactions,
surprises,
tears of happiness
Monday, December 24, 2007
Priceless Moments
My favorite moment this Christmas Eve was dancing to Christmas music with my father while Dan and my mother danced together in the kitchen.
Labels:
dancing,
father,
holidays,
memories,
moments of happiness,
music,
other,
parents,
simple pleasures,
together
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Inanimate Cause For Concern
It is very strange to look up from one's reading and see at least sixteen pairs of eyes staring at you from their lofty vantage points on top of the television and bookcase.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Oh, To Be Barefoot And Careless Again
I drove by my childhood home tonight and was shocked at how different it is from my vivid, Technicolor memories.
Labels:
change,
children/childhood,
colors,
memories,
past and present,
surprises
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
They're Ruining One Of My Favorite Times Of The Year!
I cannot wait for the damn "He's The Reason For The Season" season to be over.
Labels:
employment,
frustration,
holidays,
seasons,
unimaginable stupidity
Monday, December 17, 2007
Perhaps He Will Offer Me Black And White Cookies And Orange Soda
There is an older man who comes into work all the time who looks just like my grandfather: every time I see him, I have to restrain myself from asking his name and searching for some glimmer of recognition in his eyes.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Saturday, December 15, 2007
You Don't Have To Be An Adult All The Time
Sometimes it does you a world of good to have chocolate cake for breakfast.
Friday, December 14, 2007
If You Enjoy Pain, Anyway
If you've never had a frozen quart of half and half leap from your freezer and onto your awaiting foot, please allow me to be the first to recommend it.
Thursday, December 13, 2007
She Made The Zoo Special
One of my favorite memories from my childhood is feeding peanuts to the elephant at Tote-Em-In-Zoo.
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
We Dearly Need The Rain
As I drift off to sleep I notice that the headlights passing by the window of this unfamiliar room look like lightning.
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Biding Farewell To One Of The Loveliest Minds
Terry Pratchett has early onset Alzheimer's.
Labels:
books,
disbelief,
health and medicine,
moments of sorrow
Monday, December 10, 2007
Friday, December 7, 2007
Why Is It So Hard For Them To Just Stay Put?
This is not terribly unlike what every day at work feels like for a bookseller.
Labels:
books,
employment,
frustration,
just for reference,
madness,
parallel existences,
world view
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Who Knows What The Future Holds
As my one year anniversary of working at Barnes and Noble quickly approaches I begin wonder if history is going to repeat itself.
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Risks Worth Taking
I wished a woman Happy Hanukkah and her face broke into a smile worth a thousand chances of my being wrong about her religion.
Labels:
holidays,
moments of happiness,
pros and cons,
reactions
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
"What The Hell Is That?!"
Watching a dog who has never before encountered a washer and dryer react to the sudden and unexpected noises that occur when one is using said machines is both (largely) amusing and (minimally) frustrating.
Sunday, December 2, 2007
After A Year, Clotheswashing Can Now Happen At Home
After all of the drama and issues surrounding the acquisition and installation of the new washer and dryer I can finally say that it is working wonderfully and I am amazingly happy.
Labels:
domesticality,
excitement,
modern issues,
moments of happiness
Saturday, December 1, 2007
Friday, November 30, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
I'm Just A Cloud Watching The Moon Rise
It pleases me that I am not so far removed that I am unable to stand with my face tilted towards the sky and bask in the awe-inspiring glow of the waxing moon.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
The Daily Grind Is Wearing Me Away
How can you discern when you are working a job that you enjoy for the job itself and begin working because you are afraid of the loss of security leaving would bring?
Labels:
change,
confliction of interests,
cycles,
emotions,
employment
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
Christmas Tree O' Christmas Tree
How does everything look so right in your light?
Labels:
comfort,
holidays,
moments of happiness,
simple pleasures,
trees
Monday, November 26, 2007
Like A Ghost Into The Fog
In my dream it was cold and wet and windy but all I wanted to do was see the ocean.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Bun In The Oven!
I'm going to be an aunt again and I'm so excited.
Labels:
children/childhood,
excitement,
family,
pregnant,
surprises
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Comptine d'Un Autre Été
This is exactly what I needed.
Labels:
moments of happiness,
sensitivity to music,
stumble,
surprises
Friday, November 23, 2007
Only Then Are The Colors Vibrant Enough To Satisfy Me
This is a wonderful city to drive around in the rain.
Labels:
colors,
just for reference,
observation,
thunderstorms,
weather
Thursday, November 22, 2007
The Pros Totally Outweigh The Cons
The only downsides I've found to getting mounds of free books from Paperbackswap are not knowing which one to start first, wanting to jump into each one as they come in, and feeling guilty about the ones I've already begun.
Labels:
books,
decisions,
emotions,
modern issues,
pop references,
pros and cons,
reading
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
We've Had Enough Of These Military Scoreboards - These Politicians' Wars
On the way to work today I saw two older men standing on a street corner with signs encouraging withdrawal from Iraq and I was overwhelmed with the desire to park my car, shake their hands, and join them.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
I'm Thankful For Tastiness
I am so excited about the possibility of Thanksgiving Pancakes!
Labels:
dorkiness,
food/beverage,
holidays,
plans,
simple pleasures
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Sad But True
I am actually looking forward to being responsible for all of my expenses come my birthday this year because it means that I will finally be able to leave my mother behind.
Labels:
aging gracefully,
birthday,
escape,
monetary issues,
mother,
relief,
unfortunate truths
Saturday, November 17, 2007
So Much Is At Stake
After reading my cousin's blog I am reminded that every generation strives to be better than the previous; reoccurring exclamations declaring that we will not act this way, we will make better decisions, and should we forget why we are making an effort, to look to our parents and their generation for reminders of what we have to face should we fail.
Labels:
aging gracefully,
decisions,
family,
future,
parents
Friday, November 16, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Such Things Are Important On Frosty Nights
Love is asking for a soda and having him bring home a twelve pack too.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Time Never Flies By Quicker Than When It Is Vacation Time
How can six days have possibly passed since my last day at work?
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
From The Latin "Speciōsus" Meaning "Good-Looking"
When I think about my plans for the future and how they might turn out, I fear that they are specious: plausible but wrong.
Saturday, November 10, 2007
That Doesn't Stop Me From Trying
I like to feel that I'm making a difference even though the companies that could are basing their donations on a stupid website.
Labels:
america,
charity,
food/beverage,
frustration,
grounding
Friday, November 9, 2007
Yay For Win Win Situations!
Playing FreeRice is a wonderful way to feel smart, increase your vocabulary, and help give food to the hungry.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Heralding In The Frost Warning
The seasonal switch from a/c to heat was celebrated tonight with high fives and hot cocoa.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
But...I Like Cake!
I am excited to possibly know what is causing my fatigue and tummy issues but I am wary of what sort of long term affect it might have on my life.
Monday, November 5, 2007
The Unabridged Genius
The estates of several dead writers are releasing the unedited versions of well known works and I cannot wait to read them.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Leave The Leaves Alone!
I am morally opposed to raking because the leaves are there for a reason: they insulate the plants during the winter, they decompose and nourish the soil, and they make me happy when I see the beautiful fall colors.
Friday, November 2, 2007
So Much For The Upstanding Morals Of The Good Old Days
I never realized just how skeevy the song "Baby It's Cold Outside" is until really listening to it today at work.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
The Fact That It Was Free Probably Helps
I never imagined that I'd be so excited over a washer and dryer.
Labels:
domesticality,
dorkiness,
simple pleasures,
surprises
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I Don't Care If It Is "All Natural"
My least favorite part of the tattoo process is slathering myself in corn oil based "Ink Fixx" because it makes me smell like a fry station in a diner and feels like Vaseline.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Little Puzzles
After using calculators almost exclusively for close to a year at work, doing the math in my head is refreshing and fun!
Labels:
dorkiness,
employment,
mathematics,
simple pleasures
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Insider Tips
In my experience, if someone is wearing a shirt that says "I'm With The Band" they aren't.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
You Can't Have It Both Ways
Only in North Carolina can there be a severe drought and a flood warning at the same time.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
They Should Live In The Ocean, Not The Colon
You realize that you're getting old when polyps are not longer friendly sea creatures but forebearers of cancer.
Labels:
aging gracefully,
animals,
change,
health and medicine
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
I Somehow Doubt That Was Her Intention
Every time I see Ann Coulter's book How To Talk To A Liberal (If You Must) I get the song "How To Talk To An Angel" stuck in my head.
Monday, October 22, 2007
Stagnation Breeds Destruction
I need to be challenged at work because the alternative is me losing interest, calling out repeatedly, and eventually becoming so dispassioned that I must either quit or become horribly depressed.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Getting Up At Six Has Some Perks
The sky was amazing this morning, filled with vivid pinks and purples, all on a swirled cloud backdrop.
Saturday, October 20, 2007
They Deserve A Better Destiny
I have so many half finished thoughts in my draft folder that I fear may never see the light of day.
Friday, October 19, 2007
I'm Not Scared But She's Making A Mess
I think that my dead neighbor-lady might be haunting my kitchen.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Now There Is Something I Can Get Behind
Today is National Chocolate Cupcake Day but as I found this out only a few moments ago I shall have to wait until next year to celebrate.
Labels:
dorkiness,
food/beverage,
holidays,
just for reference
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
My Confession
I am sometimes pleased when he leaves, as I enjoy my solitude at times, but I am never happier than when he returns.
Labels:
alone,
intervals,
moments of happiness,
parting,
together
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Sometimes I Wish It Were True
It breaks my heart to hear one of my dearest friends talk about how she hopes that God will cure her mother of Paranoid Schizophrenia.
Labels:
family,
friendship,
god,
hope,
moments of sorrow,
wishes
Monday, October 15, 2007
Images Of Bleak Beauty
No sooner do I realize that I do not have a camera that I find a dozen scenes I want to capture.
Sunday, October 14, 2007
The Days Leading Up To These Were More Important Than Those Which Are Left
She only has a matter of days.
Labels:
moments of sorrow,
parting,
past and present,
perceptions
Saturday, October 13, 2007
The Band Is Playing Somewhere, And Somewhere Hearts Are Light
Somewhere the leaves are changing colors and drifting to the ground instead of staying the same shade of green they always have been and remaining steadfastly attached to the trees.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Casper Is A Strange Name For A Tabby (Pumpkin Spice!) Cat
On the eve of my Duke appointment, I met a most wonderful kitty cat while sitting on the front steps of a house that I wish was mine while enjoying a season that does not seem to occur in my own town.
Labels:
animals,
diversion,
envy,
health and medicine,
moments of happiness,
peace,
seasons
Thursday, October 11, 2007
A Large Gathering Of Pumpkins Is Something To Celebrate
The sight of the annual pumpkin invasion of a local churchyard reminds me that while it does not necessarily feel like autumn, Halloween is quickly approaching.
Labels:
holidays,
reaffirmations,
seasons,
unseasonable temperatures
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
They Can See You
When I am alone at night and the dogs start barking like mad at something outside, I begin to wish that we had blinds.
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Change Isn't Always Good
Sometimes they don't move you from ICU because you are better; sometimes they just can't do anything else for you.
Monday, October 8, 2007
My Escape Route
I just want to curl up in my chair and read and read and read until I cease to exist.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Hiss...Boom!
Tonight I was with my nephew when he saw fireworks for the first time, and I was filled with hope and happiness.
Labels:
children/childhood,
family,
hope,
moments of happiness,
new experiences
Friday, October 5, 2007
My Library ... My Children
The slow acquisition of first editions into my collection is both exciting and maddening.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
HP Revisited
One thousand people all gathered in one place, with one common goal is a terribly frightful force to reckon with.
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
Openness Has Certain Perils
These thoughts are partitioned off for a reason and should I happen to feel a need to discuss them with you, I would hope that you have enough common decency to keep this new-found information to yourself.
Labels:
discomfort,
minds and their subsets,
ramifications,
thoughts
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I Get Such Nice Compliments
"I've never seen someone relaxing in the chair, reading a book while getting a tattoo before."
Monday, October 1, 2007
Preaching Hate To The Population
You know the day is going to be bad when the first book you sell is the new Ann Coulter.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Walnuts, Pineapple, Balsamic Vinegar, Citrus...
Why must I crave the foods that cause me the greatest pain?
Friday, September 28, 2007
I Wish That Their Lives Were Different
Sometimes I get so angry about things that I cannot change that I almost work myself into a panic attack from the sheer helplessness of it all.
I'm Afraid To Look Into His Argument
Today I learned that the president of the country in which I live decided that it was a bad idea to give poor children healthcare - totally paid for by a slight increase in the cigarette tax.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
It Is Quite Lucky That I Had A Lot Of It To Begin With
I am disappointed to realize that the longer I work in retail the less tolerance I seem to have for mean, irritated, unreasonable, and/or stupid people.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Quality Reading Material
While I try not to pass judgment on people based upon the items they purchase, I cannot help but be disappointed every time someone buys a US Weekly or OK magazine.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Bonne Nuit Monsieur Marceau
How do you mourn the passing of someone that you already thought to be dead?
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Even If It Makes Me Feel Positively Naked
Sometimes, rarely, the camera sees me as I would like to be seen.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
No Destination Required
I've discovered great happiness riding in my car with my pups: wind blowing, music playing, tails and tongues wagging, joy overflowing.
Labels:
animals,
dorkiness,
moments of happiness,
peace,
simple pleasures
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Persistence?
I fear that my life may be heading in the wrong direction, but I've come too far down this road to turn around just yet - not before I round this bend to see what I may have missed.
Labels:
confliction of interests,
decisions,
future,
lost,
waiting
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Errors In Judgment
In this life you are allowed, and in turn forgiven, many mistakes - save the one that destroys you.
Monday, September 17, 2007
A Man With A Briefcase Can Steal More Money Than Any Man With A Gun
I used to think that all you needed was love, but now I've come to the conclusion that you probably need a bit of cash as well.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
If A Equals B And B Equals C Then A Must Equal Kumquat Jam
I've never dealt well with being yelled at and, knowing that, one must wonder just what she thinks will be accomplished by screaming at me and then, in the same breath, telling me that I never come over any more.
Saturday, September 15, 2007
The Sky Is A-Ready To Burst
Every time I think that I've gotten everything under (my) control and I am ready to take the much-needed snip to my financial connection to my parents (and thusly neutralizing their pressuring chip) something happens that would make it dreadfully difficult if not outright impossible to do so.
Friday, September 14, 2007
Simplest Moments Worth Remembering
Resting against his side in the back of his father's car, happiness found me at last.
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
But My Dreams, They Aren't As Empty
As dearly as I wish it were true, books cannot keep you warm at night.
Labels:
alone,
awake,
books,
feigned ignorance,
futility,
just for reference,
sleeping,
unfortunate truths
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
So Much Depends On This Decision
Do I have the nerve to try to make it alone; to leave and search for my own life in the heights?
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Come Quickly, My Heart Draws Me Outdoors
There is a faint chill in the breeze today that whispers of the promise of autumn.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
She'll Be Better, If You'll Be Kind
What if I really am the terrible daughter she tells me I am?
Labels:
disbelief,
discomfort,
moral debates,
mother,
parents,
questioning reality
Friday, September 7, 2007
Freedom Comes At A Price
I hate the idea that I am dependant on chemicals to maintain my current quality of life and I frequently consider stopping them altogether but it is quite difficult to foresee the ramifications of such a decision.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Why Must "Different" Always Be Interpreted As "Bad" When It Very Often Isn't?
There is a distinctly different feeling in the house when he's here; I cannot put my finger on it, but it is there - lying just below the surface.
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
There Comes A Time In A Young Woman's Life When She Must Cast Away Books And Learn From Experience
I wish to experience all the wonderful things that I've read about; see all of the unimaginable beauty, do all of the fantastic acts, and simply enjoy breathing the air around me.
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Restful Moments
How delightful is the sensation of sitting on the couch and simply relaxing when you know that you have so much to do and a busy couple of months ahead of you?
Labels:
couch,
existence,
moments of happiness,
observation,
relief
Monday, September 3, 2007
You Can Light My Fire
I have experienced a sudden reignition of my passions and interests: photography, sign language, pottery, singing, gardening, graph paper art, knitting, music, the written word...the list goes on and on but I haven't a clue as to when I'll be able to pursue any of this.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Lesson Learned
After eating lunch with he-who-turned-from-me, I've come to the conclusion that, while I am proud of myself for giving him another chance, I do not intend to ever extend myself in that way again.
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Startling Inadequatenesses
When I realize that I cannot read something that I need to be able to read, I suddenly feel like I am falling out of my chair.
Labels:
fear,
futility,
reading,
sudden realizations,
vision
Friday, August 31, 2007
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Arachnoid Death Spasms
I think that my neighbor-lady killed my writing spider and, if I am able to confirm this, I may never speak to her again.
Labels:
death,
irrevocable change,
moments of sorrow,
outside,
ramifications
Wednesday, August 29, 2007
She Doesn't Know That Her Time Has Passed
In such a place as this is - so alive with speech and movement, I feel as if I am merely the ghost of a girl who once sat in the window booth of the old establishment, ages before anyone knew of the Gin Blossoms or Bud Light.
Labels:
existence,
interactions,
observation,
thoughts,
twilight,
underlying meaning
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
A Phone Call I Never Anticipated Making
What is the proper reaction upon finding out that someone whom, up until four years ago, you saw several times a week but were never terribly close to has died?
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Fathers And Sons
I envy the ease of their relationship and genuine pleasure that they gain from one another's company.
Labels:
children/childhood,
envy,
interactions,
observation,
parents
Saturday, August 25, 2007
Friday, August 24, 2007
It Has Been A Long Time
The last traces of my sun-and-surf bleached-blond hair are nearing the end of their existence and, once they are gone, I will have no record of my time there.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
What Are You Hiding?
As much as it sounds like a trendy bumper sticker, normal people really do worry me because while 'strange' people tend to wear their quirks on their sleeves, I cannot shake the notion that 'normal' people are hiding theirs more deeply for a reason.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I Long For The Adaptations That We Have Gained And Lost
Despite the fact that I know that I should be thankful for my highly developed brain, upright posture, and opposable thumbs I find myself feeling somewhat bereft after reading through Planet Earth.
Monday, August 20, 2007
It's The Rhythm Of The Changing Tides
I have discovered that I truly enjoy the new rhythm of my life even though I can foresee it becoming overwhelming at times.
Labels:
cycles,
employment,
moments of happiness,
plans,
School/Students
Sunday, August 19, 2007
He Who Should Not Be A Manager
Anyone who uses the word 'snafu' needs to be slapped in the face.
Labels:
employment,
interactions,
unimaginable stupidity,
words
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Forever Gone Is The Idealized Mother Of My Childhood
The more I work on this post, wording and rewording the same thoughts over and over again, the more I come to realize that it all boils down to this: after my experience in Virginia, I will never look at my mother the same way again.
Labels:
family,
interactions,
irrevocable change,
mother,
parents,
ramifications,
sickness,
unfortunate truths
Friday, August 17, 2007
Authors Read And Should Therefore Know Better
The first line of a book can ruin the rest of the book for you because while you may not know how things will happen, you certainly have a pretty darn good idea what happens.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Flash And The Lines Disappear
The day's imagined and fanciful danger, self imposed via roller coasters, was dramatically foiled as the evening's reality came crashing in on us from the sky.
Labels:
change,
observation,
parallel existences,
thunderstorms
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
It Is By No Means An Irrational Fancy That, In A Future Existence, We Shall Look Upon What We Think Our Present Existence, As A Dream
Listening to someone speak at great length about one of my favorite historical figures makes him seem more of fiction than fact.
Labels:
observation,
passion,
past and present,
questioning reality
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Click, Click, Click, Click, Click, Woosh, Wee!
Watching my baby sister learn that she loves roller coasters is like discovering part of myself in her that I cannot wait to cultivate further.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Next Time Has To Be An Improvement
I would be the one to travel hundreds of miles from home, towards a potentially awesome week of amusement park fun, only to get dreadfully sick for virtually the entire length of my stay.
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Go, Have Fun - I'm Fine
Leaving the pups at Jean's house felt just as I would imagine taking my human children to kindergarten for the first time.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Four Months Can Be A Very Long Time
After compiling my work and school schedules today I realized for the first time just how busy these next few months are truly going to be.
Labels:
employment,
future,
plans,
School/Students,
sudden realizations
Friday, August 10, 2007
Now I Know What People Mean When They Say "Eustress"
Why can things never ever be easy?
Thursday, August 9, 2007
Who Comes Up With Such Things?
Today is National Rice Pudding Day and even though there are barely two hours left in 'today' and I have to be up at six, I want to rush out and buy lots of rice pudding to celebrate!
Labels:
celebration,
dorkiness,
food/beverage,
moments of happiness
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Just Because You Don't Want It To Be True Doesn't Make It So
The Yangtze River Dolphin may very well be extinct now because of the senseless destruction humans seem to spawn everywhere they roam and I cannot help but hope that they have secretly escaped their fate, even as I mourn their passing.
Labels:
animals,
death,
escape,
futility,
hope,
irrevocable change,
moments of sorrow,
unfortunate truths
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
Tut Tut It Looks Like Rain
After an afternoon filled with promising thunderheads and nearly one-hundred percent humidity then topped off with a night punctuated with flashes of heat lightning, I cannot help but be disappointed in the lack of a decent storm.
Labels:
emotions,
outside,
thunderstorms,
unfortunate truths
Monday, August 6, 2007
The Small Print Will Get You Every Time
I make the best effort that I am able when it comes to spiders on the walls of my shower, but when I look up and the spider in question has moved in my direction and/or disappeared, all treaties are henceforth null and void.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
Pink Floyd Made Me Write This, It Came Unbidden.
I miss him in the small hours of the day, in the breaths between thoughts, and in my waking moments when I imagine that he is still nestled into the small of my back, or me in his.
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Reaching The Minds That Have Not Yet Closed
Listening to her talk about the class she is teaching in the fall makes me wish that I would follow through with my dream of teaching science to elementary school students.
Labels:
dreams,
friendship,
interactions,
passion,
School/Students,
science,
wishes
Friday, August 3, 2007
Money Is Tight But That Is No Excuse For Shoddy Cookery
To the truly delightful ziti that I subjected to freezer burned broccoli and 'zesty cheese sauce' (that, truth be told, had probably lost its zest before leaving my mother's freezer): you deserved more than this abysmal fate and you have my sincere apologies.
Labels:
dorkiness,
food/beverage,
moments of sorrow,
open letter,
regret
Thursday, August 2, 2007
Ctrl+A, Delete
If all of my entires were to mysteriously disappear one day, what sort of reaction would I have?
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
But He Can Still Be A Doggie!
I am saddened to realize that I live in an era in which Pluto has lost its status as a planet.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
I Have Them All Fooled!
The credit card companies think that I'm a grown-up and a world-wide corporation thinks that I'm a grown-up, does that make me a grown-up?
Labels:
aging gracefully,
dorkiness,
employment,
questioning reality
Monday, July 30, 2007
Extended Aways Are A Myth
The mornings come earlier and earlier these days so I had better make the most of the nights.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
It'll Even Out In The End
The pride that I experienced due to my efficiency at work tonight is almost entirely overshadowed by my fear that I've forgotten to do something important.
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Lightning Flashes
All around me, thunder crashes so loudly that car alarms are set off for miles.
Labels:
darkness and light,
modern issues,
observation,
outside,
thunderstorms
Friday, July 27, 2007
As Close To A Country Song As You'll Find In "These Parts"
After he kissed me and grabbed his guitar, he jumped into the back of a pick-up truck headed towards his destiny.
Labels:
destiny,
dorkiness,
interactions,
moments of happiness,
observation,
parting
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Blue Moon
I may have finally found the windowseat I've always hoped for, in the most unlikely of locations.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
I'm A Big Kid Now
The joy that comes from actually being able to create a budget now that I've gotten my promotion is entirely more exciting than it has any right to be.
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
It Happens More Than You'd Think
Sometimes I check my own blog in the morning to make sure that I haven't posted in my sleep.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Shoddy Workmanship
I outright refuse to purchase a mass market paperback and will go to great lengths to replace all such editions given to me with with trade paper or cloth versions.
Labels:
books,
gift,
just for reference,
moments of vague irritation
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Saturday, July 21, 2007
A Hidden World Just Beyond The Edge Of Perception
Today I saw a mailbox along a stretch of road that was nothing but woods and I wondered to whom it might belong.
Labels:
hidden,
mailbox,
observation,
outside,
parallel existences,
peeking,
questioning reality,
trees,
worlds
Friday, July 20, 2007
Watching Waiting Rising Falling Listening Calling Drifting
Watching him play from my little mentally-walled-off part of the bar, I can actually relax enough to enjoy the show.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
We Only Come Out At Night
I'd love to climb up a mountain and lie on my back under the stars, gazing up into eternity.
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I Read Your Book And I Find It Strange That I Know That Girl And I Know Her World A Little Too Well
The process of cataloging my books is not wholly unlike excavating the site of my youth.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Please Be Okay. Please.
I'm so worried about my little puppy.
Labels:
animals,
emotions,
family,
hope,
moments of sorrow,
sympathy,
unfortunate truths,
waiting,
wishes
Monday, July 16, 2007
Newfound Respect For The Plight Of The "Hunt-and-Peck'ers"
What I wouldn't do for a standard numerical keypad right about now.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I Don't Want To Wonder If This Is A Blunder
But what if I am getting in over my head?
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Friday, July 13, 2007
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Watching the embers of a slowly dying fire twinkle like the lights on a Christmas tree from an idealized childhood allows me to drift off in peace.
Labels:
children/childhood,
fire,
holidays,
moments of happiness,
outside,
peace,
thoughts
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
And A Piece Slides Into Place
Tonight, while putting books on the shelf by candle and lamplight, attended by my dogs (who were seeking my company due to the approaching storm), is the first time I've truly felt this as 'my room'.
Labels:
awake,
books,
change,
domesticality,
dorkiness,
emotions,
moments of happiness,
peace,
thunderstorms
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Eyes Open, Arms Wide
My chance viewing of the heat lightning illuminating the previously undetectable levels of clouds makes me wonder what else may have escaped my notice.
Labels:
darkness and light,
observation,
outside,
thoughts,
world view
Monday, July 9, 2007
Five Dollar Wisdom
Everybody needs help sometime.
Labels:
call and response,
empathy,
gift,
just for reference,
monetary issues,
world view
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Timing Is Everything
A touch of kindness from across the sea and across town makes the stress of one's family that much more bearable.
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Those Who Cannot Protect Themselves
I have always been, am, and will always be a protector of children and animals.
Labels:
animals,
children/childhood,
just for reference,
protection,
safety
Friday, July 6, 2007
We Must Be Careful About What We Pretend To Be
As I was sitting in my nephew's bedroom, I looked around at his toys and books and realized that I am not nearly as removed from my childhood as I would like to believe that I am.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Be Kind To Those Who Sacrifice Their Lives To Further Your Own
I cannot help but feel especially bad for the lobsters waiting to be bought for dinner, not for the end result of being boiled while alive, but rather the weeks of starvation leading up to that point.
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Every Man Has A Rainy Corner of His Life Whence Comes Foul Weather Which Follows Him
Why must I always dream of winter during summer and spring during winter?
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Do You Realize How Idiotic You Sound?
People who refer to themselves in third person or in the 'Royal We" should be smacked.
Monday, July 2, 2007
Sunday, July 1, 2007
When Life And Computers Exist In Parallel
To update and restart but risk losing everything or to live with not ever knowing of what might have been: which is worse?
Saturday, June 30, 2007
It's The Time Of The Season For Loving
Life is too short to hold such disdain for certain seasons - there are things to love about each.
Labels:
emotions,
making up for lost time,
outside,
seasons,
wisdom
Friday, June 29, 2007
You're Always On My Mind
After realizing that if I had taken the medicine prescribed for my migraines with the medicine prescribed for my craziness I could have died from internal bleeding, I lost the rest of my already meager amount of trust in the medical professionals in my life.
Thursday, June 28, 2007
But Everything Looks Perfect From Far Away
You cannot take the pictures with you.
Labels:
death,
discomfort,
moments of sorrow,
pictures,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
License Numbers And Their Affect On The Known World
How would my life change if my parents were never really married?
Labels:
change,
hypothetical situations,
irony,
madness,
parents,
world view
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
The Groaning City In The Gathering Dark
The summer twilight sky was the color of the dress blues worn by the young soldiers waiting to be sent off to see their first and final battles, far away from home.
Labels:
darkness and light,
internal creations,
outside,
seasons,
sky,
summer,
twilight
Monday, June 25, 2007
My Secret Garden
I'm going to grow beautiful plants and make a peaceful garden filled with life and stone walkways and ivy covered arches and no one can stop me!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Being True To Yourself Shouldn't Be This Painful To Others
The look in my father's eyes when he saw my tattoo was worse than when he learned that I had intended to move out without his permission, the oddness of which does not escape my grasp.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Hidden Colors
Even though no one can see my tie dye bootlaces, they make me feel happy.
Labels:
art,
bootlaces,
comfort,
employment,
hidden,
moments of happiness
Friday, June 22, 2007
Nervousness Makes My Voice Shake
I have never been more thankful for the "press three to listen to your message" and "press four to rerecord your message" voice mail options than I am this morning while attempting to leave a message for the man who will play a deciding role in my future.
Labels:
call and response,
employment,
future,
modern issues,
uncertainty
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dream A Sweet Dream For Me
I found my glass pen today while cleaning and I suddenly wished for beautiful words to commit to paper while sitting under a shady tree with a cat curled up at my feet.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Bring On The Wonder
It is truly amazing the difference a day can make.
Labels:
change,
cycles,
disbelief,
emotions,
moments of happiness
Monday, June 18, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
Take A Little Trip With Me
I am thrilled to finally have the time to read all of the books that I have amassed throughout the years - each one containing an entire world that I now have the privilege of exploring.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
It Seems That Silence In This Modern Age Is So Very Hard To Find
I wrap myself in thoughts until they smother me.
Friday, June 15, 2007
In My Heart I Remain A Clever Imposter
It is utterly exhausting to have to pretend to be happy and cheerful when you are anything but.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Speaking For Those Who Have No Voices Of Their Own
They tore down my flowers because they were deemed 'not pretty enough' by a board of meddling old biddies with nothing better to do than to destroy the self esteem of helpless young plants and then having the audacity to charge us for it.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Because, This Is Totally Helpful
On the day of the highly anticipated change of OS, my hard drive died upon restarting - leaving me without my old system and with but a teasing taste of the new one.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Simple Truth
A full pantry is a happy pantry, but an empty wallet is a sad wallet, so it is highly fortunate that my happiness is not particularly attached to my current level of wealth.
Monday, June 11, 2007
Why Does This Make Me So Sad?
"Oh, let him have his day in the sun."
Labels:
animals,
darkness and light,
moments of sorrow,
sadness
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Modern Day Icarus
Last night I dreamt that I could fly but I got cancer from being too close to the power lines.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
I Used To Sing On The Mountains, Then The Ocean Lost Its Way
The waves of silence that have been lapping at my feet for so long have finally overtaken me.
Labels:
alone,
emotions,
shifting,
silence,
underlying meaning
Friday, June 8, 2007
And If I Said, "O It's In Your Head On This Sea-Drift Sun," What Can You Do?
And now I have a difficult decision to make: I can either feel good emotionally or I can feel good physically- one or the other, but not both.
Thursday, June 7, 2007
More Unkindness Than Anyone Should Endure
After revisiting my youth in conversation with her tonight, I've come to the conclusion that she needs to get out there as soon as possible.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Disappointing But True
Just because it is organic does not mean that it will be tasty.
Labels:
food/beverage,
just for reference,
organic,
unfortunate truths
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
A Bit Of Blunt Honesty
The only reason why I want to get married sooner than later is because I'd like for it to happen while my grandmother still knows who I am.
Labels:
emotions,
I love you grandma,
just for reference,
plans,
sadness
Monday, June 4, 2007
In Time Grass Becomes Milk
Having unwavering faith in someone, despite all of their attempts to convince you that they are hopeless, is a very important thing to do.
Sunday, June 3, 2007
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Leave Me Swinging With The Breeze
There are few things sweeter than sitting on a porch swing during a warm summer thunderstorm with the one that you love, arm in arm.
Friday, June 1, 2007
And I Never Wish To Escape
American Gods is one of those rare books that within mere moments of opening the cover you will have been wholly engulfed by the world that had lain in wait for you to stumble, foolishly, close by.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
No, It's Not Me
Is it odd that my first thought upon hearing that my leg might have to be amputated is that I am going to miss my toes?
Labels:
health and medicine,
hypothetical situations,
thoughts,
toes
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
From A Little Shell At The Bottom Of The Sea
Hurricane Season is my favorite part of summer because it is only after a very bad storm that treasures from the deep can be found at low tide without hordes of tourists crushing them beneath their feet.
Let The Sunshine In
This would be a whole lot funnier if I wasn't so afraid of the future it foretells.
Labels:
america,
discomfort,
fear,
future,
moments of vague irritation,
science
Monday, May 28, 2007
A Legitimate Excuse
I cannot help but feel that calling into work when you are actually sick is a waste of an opportunity to escape the doldrums of a normal working day and experience something new.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
When You Dream About Death, This Is The Sort Of Post You Might Make
Can you imagine how difficult and time consuming it must be to match dental records to a dead person's teeth?
Labels:
corpse identification,
dreams,
just for reference,
science
Saturday, May 26, 2007
There Are Many Things Worse Than Death
Just because I support the pro-choice movement does not mean that I do not mourn the loss of life.
Friday, May 25, 2007
They Are The Future
Watching children as young as eight perform The Tempest in the original Shakespearean English is very humbling and inspiring.
Labels:
children/childhood,
future,
moments of happiness,
shakespeare
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Vibrating Quicker Than The Eye Can See
Today I took advantage of the 'Buy Two Get One Free' sale at work to buy six new books but now I am at a virtual standstill as I attempt to decide which one to read first.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Oh, My Kingdom For An Elephant
My childhood memories of the circus are directly at odds with my knowledge of how they tend to treat their animals and it is for that reason that I am uncertain if I will ever attend again.
Labels:
animals,
children/childhood,
circus,
future,
the unknown
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Monday, May 21, 2007
Little Hideaway
Whenever I need to think or to lose myself, I drive on long stretches of highway while listening to music and singing at the top of my lungs - all by myself.
Labels:
alone,
emotions,
just for reference,
sensitivity to music,
thoughts
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Impactful Forgetfulness
I'm so afraid that I am going to forget to tell them something important that will end up having a great impact on my diagnosis.
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Chin Up, Put On A Pair Of These Roseys
You know that you've been working in retail too long when you can be on the verge of breaking and still be able to pass off a smile and a hearty 'hello-how-are-you' as genuine.
Labels:
emotions,
employment,
interactions,
just for reference,
overwhelmed
Friday, May 18, 2007
I Catch A Brief Reflection Of What You Could And Might Have Been
As I sat in my car mourning the surprise death of my friend, I realized that if we had not stayed at that awful place I may never have found out.
Labels:
disbelief,
moments of sorrow,
parting,
unfortunate truths
Thursday, May 17, 2007
But As The Scenery Grows, I See In Different Lights
The idea that this might be my last semester at CFCC would be exciting if I wasn't so unsure about the steps that come after.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Monday, May 14, 2007
Fleeing From Myself, To Myself
When I don't take my medicine my mind starts to fragment and expand until it becomes difficult to grasp and I enjoy the experience until I remember where such things tend to lead.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I'm Not Really That Unknowing
Sometimes I pretend not to know about something that I do, in fact, know about in order to have an opportunity to listen to someone speak.
Labels:
feigned ignorance,
interactions,
just for reference,
words
Friday, May 11, 2007
Sentinels Don't Make Good Pillows
A puppy looking out of the window while laying on the bed makes a good pillow - until something outside catches her attention and she shifts from pillow-mode to sentinel-mode.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
And Peace All Around May Be Your Fortune
With the quality of the rest of a woman's life potentially hanging in the balance, I am afraid to be hopeful.
Labels:
change,
empathy,
family,
fear and excitement,
future,
ramifications
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Have I Failed Her?
Discovering a box of books from my childhood is like unearthing a time capsule of who I wanted to be when I grew up.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Please Be Careful, I Exist In Someone Else's Head
I feel like a feather that is drifting in the wind, aimlessly.
Monday, May 7, 2007
To Boldly Go Where No Man Has Gone Before
I am thrilled to be living in an era where science fiction is rapidly turning into science fact.
Sunday, May 6, 2007
I Want To Go!
I get very upset when I see people going to far off lands simply to be able to tell their well-to-do friends that they've been there, instead of wanting to go there for the place itself.
Saturday, May 5, 2007
Escape Is Imminent
Sometimes I feel that my soul or consciousness or what have you is not very well attached to this moral coil and may break free at any moment.
Labels:
consciousness,
escape,
questioning reality,
shifting,
world view
Friday, May 4, 2007
We Are Not As So Far Removed As We Would Like To Think
Reading about the Kent State Shootings has reaffirmed my fear that the freedoms in the "Land of the Free" are truly more of an illusion than a reality.
Labels:
america,
cycles,
death,
discomfort,
dissent,
past and present,
reading,
reaffirmations,
safety,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Open Your Eyes and Wake Up
The world has gone mad and it seems like hardly anyone has noticed.
Labels:
america,
fear,
madness,
overwhelmed,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
I Need To Work On That
Upon imagining my mother's funeral and being asked to speak, my reaction is always the same, "I don't really have anything to say".
Labels:
moral debates,
mother,
parents,
parting,
unfortunate truths,
words
Monday, April 30, 2007
I Couldn't Tell You How It Really Was
When I phoned to check her condition after the surgery, I could not be certain if she was really pleased to hear from me, or if it was simply the drugs speaking.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Holding You Is Like Cupping Water
Damn you, writers of House, for making me think about things that I don't want to have to face right now...that I do not want to be real.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
She's Not Chosen This Path
Observing my great aunts interacting with my grandmother gives me a peek into a possible future that I am afraid of.
Labels:
discomfort,
family,
fear,
futility,
future,
the unknown
Friday, April 27, 2007
Bitchin' Birthday
I must admit that seeing my mother get angry over "Stitch And Bitch" and not being able to punish me was a particularly delightful joy.
Labels:
aging gracefully,
birthday,
books,
change,
family,
interactions,
moments of happiness,
mother,
parents
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Only Love Can Live In My Dream
Sleep is my refuge.
Labels:
alone,
moments of happiness,
peace,
safety,
sleeping
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
I Always Try To Imagine Them As Innocent, Hopeful Children
I think that there must be some sort of compassion-removal process when you become a teacher at a community college because I refuse to believe that they were this heartless before.
Somewhere Out There
The possibility that this newfound planet may contain life is brimming with incredible excitement and, admittedly, some reservations about what the inhabitants of this planet may do with this information.
Labels:
fear and excitement,
moral debates,
science,
surprises,
the unknown
Monday, April 23, 2007
But The Music's Got The Magic, It's Your One Chance For Escape
I found out tonight that I am going to be taught violin by the Concert Master of the Wilmington Symphony Orchestra for free.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Maybe You Might Have Some Advise To Give On How To Be Insensitive
I cannot stand sitcoms because they make me feel so uncomfortable when embarrassing situations arise, no matter how 'comedic' they may be.
Friday, April 20, 2007
I'll Wish, And The Thunder Clouds Will Vanish
Note To Self : Stop feeling weird all of the damn time, it's getting old.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Time Slips Away From You
I've always loved the front porch on the house in which I grew up: wrought iron railings, plenty of room for potted plants and dogs and cats and wishing upon stars before bed.
Labels:
children/childhood,
comfort,
memories,
moments of happiness,
peace
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
It's The Hip New Place To Be
Today I went to the laundromat for the first time and the only person I made eye contact with was a three year old boy, with whom I share an affinity for Starbursts.
Labels:
diversion,
interactions,
just for reference,
new experiences
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
And Whisper'd
The house does seem unnaturally quiet now and I am not entirely sure how that makes me feel.
Labels:
change,
cycles,
emotions,
parting,
sudden realizations
Sunday, April 15, 2007
I Wish That Things Were Different
Whenever I listen to songs about relationships between fathers and daughters or between mothers and daughters I always get amazingly sad - moved to tears.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
What Is One To Do?
I have, in one of my away messages, a quote in which the phrase, "God damn it" happens to occur and for some reason my mother (and now, thanks to her overwhelming concern, my father) have decided to send a message to me stating that, "it is offensive and that (I) should change it" every time they see the away message.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Buvons à Nos Souvenirs
Evenings filled with people and refreshments and activities is just enough distraction to divert my attention away from the other things.
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Yay - Crutches!
Even when you are keenly aware of how lucky you are to have an ability, having it taken away is a very eye-opening experience.
Utter Disbelief
"I think you're beautiful."
Labels:
comfort,
empathy,
friendship,
moments of happiness,
surprises,
tears of happiness
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm So Glad It's Over
The IRS: the super nice people who can make you be so afraid that you forget your own zip code.
Monday, April 9, 2007
Math Test Vs Photography
The lamp is casting some lovely shadows tonight and the leaves are glistening with dew.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Parsley, Sage, Rosemary And Thyme
If I tell you that I cannot do the things that you ask of me, let me know that if at least I try then I'll be your true love.
Labels:
call and response,
change,
destiny,
emotions,
fear,
interactions,
ramifications,
shifting
Saturday, April 7, 2007
Wash Away The World
I dearly wish that it would rain.
Labels:
call and response,
comfort,
emotions,
thunderstorms,
wishes
Friday, April 6, 2007
Why Yes, I Do Have Sunday Off...
I originally set up my work schedule in such a way as to avoid the entire 'dealing with family' issue but then that part of my mind (subset 1) was overpowered by the part of my mind (subset 2) that either (a) enjoys seeing my mind (subset 1) in uncomfortable situations or (b) realizes that this may be one of the last Easters when my grandmother will actually know what is going on - and switched shifts so that those two events may take place.
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Reasons Why I'm Glad B&N Has Carpet
It's always frightening when you see someone else's interpretation of your mindset without having any knowledge of you in any way.
Labels:
art,
interpertations,
modern issues,
questioning reality,
world view
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
I Wish Things Were Different
I don't want to miss out on the festivities but after everything, I don't know how comfortable I would be going over there.
Labels:
change,
comfort,
futility,
holidays,
interactions,
moments of sorrow,
mother,
overwhelmed,
parents,
patience,
regret,
unfortunate truths
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
Unwelcome Visitor
These acute bouts of depression make me worry that it might be coming back to stay.
Labels:
alone,
cycles,
emotions,
futility,
moments of sorrow,
shifting,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Monday, April 2, 2007
I Was Starting At The Sky, Just Looking For A Star
I wish that I had more time.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Does Summer Come For Everyone?
What are you afraid of?
Labels:
call and response,
emotions,
empathy,
fear,
the unknown,
thoughts
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Life Imitates Life
After seeing a little red fox last night, I realized that it had no fear of us, and for the first time in ages, I felt like all the bad things that are constantly happening may eventually even themselves out.
Labels:
comfort,
cycles,
emotions,
existence,
hope,
interactions,
moments of happiness,
peace,
ramifications,
sudden realizations,
wisdom
Balls Of Goo!
Chandra doesn't like sticky balls in her hair but she does love to throw them against various materials to watch them slowly ooze off!
Thursday, March 29, 2007
I Lost My Head Again
Around nine o'clock tonight, I realized that it was Thursday and not only have I not done this week's homework but I've been neglecting my blog.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
The Clock Never Stops, Never Stops, Never Waits
The past feels closer than the present and it is getting more and more noticeable every day.
Labels:
alone,
change,
cusps,
cycles,
madness,
past and present,
questioning reality,
shifting,
underlying meaning,
world view
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Can Humans Do What Prophets Say?
I feel that I was born to live a life of great purpose, but the thought, "Is this all there is? Is this truly what I was set forth to accomplish?" only strikes me when I am doing nothing at all to work towards that end result due to lack of motivation or lack of time.
Monday, March 26, 2007
It's The Rarity That Makes Them So Precious
Kind words, freely given and with no underlying intention, are often the most piercing and far reaching of them all.
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Why Do They Hate Our Mother Earth?
At work, I always ask people if they need a bag today because I feel that it is important to conserve petroleum products whenever possible and it frustrates me to no end when healthy people demand a bag for a single item (doubly so when that sing item is a magazine that is already in a bag!).
But We Cannot Cling To The Old Dreams Anymore
I'm tired of feeling so damn alone in my own home.
Friday, March 23, 2007
I Dig It When You Have A Smile On Your Face
It is truly the small things in life that reaffirm that all is not for naught.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Nothing Really Matters
Little actions cease to matter almost immediately while the more 'impressive' events simply require one to zoom further out from the time line for the ramifications to cease to exist.
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
It Just Wasn't Like The Old Days Anymore
I'm so afraid of losing everything that which I love that, at times, it leaves me unable to properly function until the thought passes, which makes me feel positively helpless.
Labels:
alone,
change,
destiny,
fear,
floundering,
futility,
lost,
moments of sorrow,
sadness,
thoughts,
voids,
world view
Monday, March 19, 2007
Echoes
I often dream of places I've never seen and people I've never met so I frequently wonder why they are calling and how best to answer them.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
It's A Sin To Be Fading Endlessly
But what I am to do with this new information?
Labels:
call and response,
change,
existence,
questioning reality,
world view
But It Never Made Sense To Them Anyway
On the way home from work tonight, the Cat Power song "I Don't Blame You" from the album "You Are Free" came on my ipod and it was suddenly as if one part of my consciousness was speaking to another part, "You are free. I don't blame you for not knowing. No one seems to anymore."
Saturday, March 17, 2007
They Made My Back Hurt.
I had my first "damn teenagers" moment tonight and I've never felt more old.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Farewell, Dear Friend
Words cannot properly describe the spectrum of emotions I felt tonight when I was oh-so-offhandedly informed that a dog that I've grown up with died several weeks ago and no one had the decency to tell me.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
But It's Calm Under The Waves, In The Blue Of My Oblivion
The idea of being the reincarnation of a lost princess of a underground kingdom who must go through various trials and tasks strikes a chord deep within me asking, "Where is my labyrinth?".
Labels:
alone,
comfort,
destiny,
hope,
labyrinth,
lost,
questioning reality,
underlying meaning
Pastimes: Something With Which To Pass The Time
Now for something directly to the point: I hadn't realized how much I missed playing D&D until very recently.
Monday, March 12, 2007
For The Love Of Anything Vaguely Holy, Vagina!
Vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina, vagina.
Watching and Interpreting
The way his father and step-mother interact, as compared to the way my parents interact is incredibly eye-opening and, in some ways, it makes me very sad.
Labels:
emotions,
interactions,
parents,
sadness,
underlying meaning,
unfortunate truths
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Apple Blossoms and Snowflakes
This odd cusp of seasons leaves me wanting spring to be here now and yet, I find myself still (simultaneously) holding on to the last hopes of snow.
Labels:
cusps,
seasons,
spring,
unrealistic desires,
unseasonable temperatures
Friday, March 9, 2007
Mmm...dorkiness!
I'd love to have dinner with Benjamin Folds and Alfred Yankovic and you cannot convince me otherwise.
Labels:
dorkiness,
emotions,
just for reference,
moments of happiness
Thursday, March 8, 2007
Good Morning Sunshine!
The absolute best way to wake up is by someone yelling at you about something you thought to be insignificant and because of the way they are ranting on about it makes it impossible for you to convey to them that you understand where they are coming from.
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
Springing Eternal
I'm still trying to figure out just how you can look at me the same way, after all of this time.
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
There's This Girl I Can't Get Out Of My Head
I miss my best friend.
Labels:
alone,
friendship,
patience,
sadness,
thoughts,
unfortunate truths,
waiting
Monday, March 5, 2007
Sugar Loaf
My skin smells the way that a child's does after s/he comes inside from playing on a spring day.
Labels:
aging gracefully,
comfort,
moments of happiness,
outside,
peace,
water
Sunday, March 4, 2007
I'm Sorry or Tick Tock
Sometimes I worry that he's right about me and I just don't know it yet.
Labels:
correctness,
fear,
questioning reality,
sadness,
the unknown
Saturday, March 3, 2007
Happiness Is Not A Fish You Can Catch
I've come to the realization that happiness is something that occurs, overwhelmingly, in tiny moments and should be held onto with all of one's might because that is the best, nay, only way to make it through the intermediate times.
Labels:
comfort,
cycles,
existence,
intervals,
moments of happiness,
moments of sorrow,
overwhelmed,
peace
Friday, March 2, 2007
Why Is that?
Sometimes the words of others can more accurately describe one's feelings than one's own words.
Thursday, March 1, 2007
Manifestations
When you hear a knocking in the bathroom, it's best not to call out to it unless you are prepared for the reply.
Labels:
alone,
bathroom,
call and response,
domesticality,
just for reference,
knocking,
shifting,
the unknown
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
We Are Evil And Divine
I need not venture outside of my mind for these things, for why would I wish to leave the livid, fanciful colors and architecture that I have created?
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Waiting Room Plants
The plants in my living room make me feel as if I am in a medical waiting room - like I'm perpetually waiting for something and I haven't the faintest idea what that something may be.
Labels:
domesticality,
flora,
health and medicine,
the unknown,
waiting
Monday, February 26, 2007
I Can't Find Meaning
As I was sitting in the hallway waiting to register for my mini-session classes, Our Lady Peace's Is Anybody Home? started playing and I suddenly felt as if I was sinking through the floor.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Defeatest
I'm always afraid of getting excited about something for fear of it not working out.
Labels:
fear,
futility,
irony,
plans,
regret,
thoughts,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Time Management
How ironic is it that I took a job at a bookshop so that I could have money to buy books that I now do not have time to read because of the job that I took to buy the books in the first place?
Labels:
books,
employment,
futility,
irony,
monetary issues,
reading,
sadness,
unfortunate truths
Friday, February 23, 2007
American Priorities
I cannot understand why America, one of the richest countries in the world, cannot afford to take care of the medical needs of its people.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
For Where Have They Gone?
The fear of misplaced thoughts is the driving force behind my fervent obsession with writing.
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Monday, February 19, 2007
Shallow Water
I have been dreaming almost every night about walking in shallow water - be it low tide at the ocean or through a stream - and I wonder what that means.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Transient Moral Debate
As I was falling asleep last night, I thought of the entry that I wanted for the next day but as I made my best effort to commit it to memory, I knew it would be futile, if not entirely against the spirit of the blog.
Labels:
futility,
moral debates,
sleeping,
thoughts,
unfortunate truths,
voids
Saturday, February 17, 2007
Dweller on the Threshold
I'm starting to get comfortable at work and that often seems to be the precursor of something dramatic.
Labels:
change,
comfort,
cycles,
employment,
precursor,
unfortunate truths,
world view
Friday, February 16, 2007
Current Events
After being on the phone with my mother for almost two hours, I realized that the void between our respective views of the world is wider than I had previously imagined.
Labels:
mother,
parents,
thoughts,
unfortunate truths,
voids,
world view
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
REM
My dreams are starting to feel more like reality and the edges of reality are starting to dissolve like sugar into hot tea.
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Mother Cloning
When I expressed concern over turning into my mother at some point in my life, my cousin oh so articulately pointed out, "You don't have to worry about it, because you're far too Sarah," I suddenly felt as if sleep would not be avoiding me any longer.
Monday, February 12, 2007
Unnerving
Coming into an unlocked house is particularly frightening when you realize that you have to deal with whatever you find behind that door all by yourself - alone.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Distance
The most helpless feeling comes from not being able to physically be there for someone when they are in need because despite all of the good that can come from text-only communication, it falls sharply short of a real hug.
Labels:
empathy,
friendship,
modern issues,
sadness,
sympathy,
unfortunate truths
Saturday, February 10, 2007
All The Wrong Reasons
Sometimes I feel like the only reason why certain people in my life love me is because of the things that I can do for them.
Friday, February 9, 2007
Asleep
Happiness is looking around your living room and realizing that everyone is sleeping peacefully in your presence.
Labels:
domesticality,
moments of happiness,
peace,
sleeping
Thursday, February 8, 2007
Dinner And A Movie
It's quite spectacular how such a stereotypical evening (in theory) can make you feel so much closer to someone that you've known for years, but, perhaps, every truly known until now.
Labels:
birthday,
friendship,
moments of happiness,
surprises
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Visitation
To have awoken on this morning to find that Spring has come to visit me brings my spirit aloft and fills it with hope.
Tuesday, February 6, 2007
Battle or Such Is His Gift To Me
At the end of a day filled with wonderful activities that which fought to keep my mind in the present and away from the abyss, his final smile and words, "Birthday Girl!" were enough to carry me through the night on the wings of hope.
Monday, February 5, 2007
Does It Make Things Any More Real?
Why is it that I often find myself back at this page of my own creation, staring at the words that I've strung together, struggling to ground myself in their supposed meaning?
Sunday, February 4, 2007
Saturday, February 3, 2007
Frostbitten Flowers
I always feel badly for the flora here because due to the craziness that is Wilmington weather they never know when Spring is truly here, and when it is only Winter masquerading as Spring.
Friday, February 2, 2007
Hugs
A wise woman once said, "The internet is ineffective when it comes to conveying hugs," and sadly, she could not be more correct.
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Colors
Here's a cheery thought: imagine the day that we look through our telescopes and discover that our red shift has gone blue.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Retrospective Regret
No one should ever be sick on their birthday, but that doesn't stop me from wishing that I'd taken the (albeit small) gift to her when I was informed that she was feeling better.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
Farewell
It is my supreme displeasure, dearest tree, to inform you that you have but one week to remain in our lives and I can but offer you my condolences - the worthlessness of which I am painfully aware.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
A Can Of Paint And A Straight Razor
Discussing renovation plans makes everything seem more permanent.
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Friday, January 26, 2007
Heather's Funeral
I think that her passing was not nearly as painful as watching people that I've grown up with in such pain.
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